Venting I'm digging my own grave

[MiseryLovesMyCompany]

The quality of the work I was able to do in the past weeks is starting to show the consequences. I know I was sabotaging myself for some time now, but I just can't concentrate on anything, even just getting through the day is so unbearable. The things I have to do are hard enough without me being in this state, so I expected nothing less.
I am not strong enough to see my opportunity for a stable future fall apart in front of me, because of me. I've already made so many mistakes and have so many regrets.
I've written many other things in my previous venting thread, there is no reason for repeating any of that, but everything in there still stands true.

I am even more sure now of setting a date in October. I honestly have no idea what could turn my life around at this point. I feel like I'm getting too tired to fight anymore.

 

[willitpass]

i feel the exact same way. i'm always here if you need someone to listen. you aren't alone

 

[Pho3nix]

I feel you. My life is a lifetime of mistakes and regrets. I can't believe that I was once full of hope for the future.

 

[MiseryLovesMyCompany]

i feel the exact same way. i'm always here if you need someone to listen. you aren't alone

Thank you very much.
I'm sorry that you are in a similar situation.

I feel you. My life is a lifetime of mistakes and regrets. I can't believe that I was once full of hope for the future.

People tend to say that hope dies last. I wonder what remains after. Being alive is so much fun, isn't it?
I'm sorry that things aren't going your way either.