im ctb'ing tomorrow night

[BurnedWorm]

I'm going to ctb myself tomorrow night (in about 30 hours). I'm going to ph myself. I can't be here anymore Nothing had helped me get better and my flashbacks just get worse every day. I want to have a good final day. I'm going to hangout with my friends and give my teachers and friends bracelets to remember me by (No one will find it suspicious I give people random stuff all the time). I'll have a nice dinner with my family and spend an hour with my cat. then I'll wait for everyone to go to sleep and I'll do it around midnight. tonight I'll prep my rope ( I don't have an actual one I'll have to make one) and make bracelets and write notes and hide them in my room. I'll pray to lady hestia one last time then I'll do it. I'll post before then. I hope you all live good lives while youre here.

 

[hamtaro]

I'm not going to say that things will necessarily get better -- don't know you or your situation -- but there are folks here that can attest to how a rushed, impulsive attempt made their lives a hell of a lot worse. Maybe stick with us just a little bit longer? Someone might be able to help more than I can.

 

[BurnedWorm]

it's not really rushed I've been planning something for tomorrow for awhile

 

[AllMyDreams]

If you are under 25, especially if under 21... I'd advise you to reconsider, because your brain still has a lot of room to change. I wanted to ctb a lot between 18-21, but I didn't, and even though I'm not as successful in life as I could've been, I've been able to find peace (I'm 23 now).

If you decide to live another day, the option to ctb will always be there later in life if you really need to. (I respect everyone's right to do so)

Lmk if you want to talk about anything.

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

If you are under 25, especially if under 21... I'd advise you to reconsider, because your brain still has a lot of room to change. I wanted to ctb a lot between 18-21, but I didn't, and even though I'm not as successful in life as I could've been, I've been able to find peace (I'm 23 now).

You might as well live another day, because the option to ctb will always be there later in life if you really need to. (I respect everyone's right to do so)

Lmk if you want to talk about anything.

I'm not the guy who posted this but that's pleasant to hear. I'm young, but I'm hoping to improve my mental health as I get older.

 

[Dextroid]

Remember the resources here, and keep in mind all the kind words here, but if there is no convincing you to keep living, I hope you don't have to live in pain any more and you rest in peace.

 

[dgdgtth]

Since i don't know how old you are or what you've been through, i don't know how selfish it is of me to ask you to give life one more chance. For some reason, reading your particular post and picturing the loving manner in which you intend to say goodbye to your loved ones, i really wish you would. In the end, it is your choice, and i wish you can get the peace you deserve in whatever path you choose to take.

 

[NHLTradeRumor]

I saw in the partners thread that you're in Denver. I'm in western Colorado, and could easily come over once I get my SN, and I already have meto. Of course if you already have a plan then it's okay, because I'd still have to wait a week or two.

 

[Falseunderworld]

goodbye ...sweet slumber

 

[BurnedWorm]

nvm I won't I feel bad

 

[your pathologist]

nvm I won't I feel bad

Offering to talk if needed OP. Offering a supportive ear

 

[Lost in a Dream]

nvm I won't I feel bad

The good thing is, if you don't feel like you can do it yet, then you don't have to. It's okay to change your mind or postpone it, because like others said, you can still do it later when you are ready. I like your pfp btw. Bats are pretty cool.

 

[LookingOverTheEdge]

The good thing is, if you don't feel like you can do it yet, then you don't have to. It's okay to change your mind or postpone it, because like others said, you can still do it later when you are ready. I like your pfp btw. Bats are pretty cool.

This is exactly what I wanted to say. Bat part included :).

Your choice is your own, friend. Just remember that you do have one. I wish you the very best.

 

[Rocket]

Haven't been on the forum in a while, both my parents passed away within two months of each other. They had been divorced 40 years, and lived on opposite sides of the USA, yet somehow they went to eternity in November and January. I'll be writing more about the intense reactions I've had as an only child.

The messages of love and choice to the OP were beautiful to read. We all deserve to make the choices we choose, but reading the offers of a kind ear, that changing one's mind is completely fine, and that there's no clock on such an important decision is another example of how loving this community is. To the OP, sending you an enormous hug and supporting you with peace on any decisions you make. I hope SS has given you some comfort and support in whatever you choose.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's very much understandable wishing to be gone from this hellish world, I wish you the best and I hope that you find the freedom that you wish for.

 

[CantWait2D1E]

If you are under 25, especially if under 21... I'd advise you to reconsider, because your brain still has a lot of room to change. I wanted to ctb a lot between 18-21, but I didn't, and even though I'm not as successful in life as I could've been, I've been able to find peace (I'm 23 now).

If you decide to live another day, the option to ctb will always be there later in life if you really need to. (I respect everyone's right to do so)

Lmk if you want to talk about anything.

So if I'm 24 I shouldn't want to CTB because sometime this year my brain's gonna be fully developed and magically things are gonna be all better? So tired of seeing this bs on here. Stop bringing up age as a way to invalidate peoples feelings. I'm older than you and I have more resolve to die now more than ever.

Anyway OP I wish you have a good day today if it is truly going to be your last. The stuff you planned out is beautiful. Best of luck to you with whatever you end up doing tonight.

 

[BurnedWorm]

I'm not going to do it tonight. I need to make sure everyone I know will be okay

 

[AcidBurn]

I'm sorry to hear that you are feeling this way. It is understandable that you want to have a good final day, and I am glad that you have plans to spend time with your friends and family. Please remember that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

 

[outrider567]

I'm not going to do it tonight. I need to make sure everyone I know will be okay

Peace

 

[Caoine01]

I'm not going to do it tonight

Well, both of us are brand new here on the site, my suggestion let's take a look around first.

 

[Fillingouts]

I'm going to ctb myself tomorrow night (in about 30 hours). I'm going to ph myself. I can't be here anymore Nothing had helped me get better and my flashbacks just get worse every day. I want to have a good final day. I'm going to hangout with my friends and give my teachers and friends bracelets to remember me by (No one will find it suspicious I give people random stuff all the time). I'll have a nice dinner with my family and spend an hour with my cat. then I'll wait for everyone to go to sleep and I'll do it around midnight. tonight I'll prep my rope ( I don't have an actual one I'll have to make one) and make bracelets and write notes and hide them in my room. I'll pray to lady hestia one last time then I'll do it. I'll post before then. I hope you all live good lives while youre here.

We are all here because we have thought of ending it all. You're not alone and won't be judged here.

Feel free to vent and get things off your chest. Take time and try to find some peace knowing you're not alone, people do care about you, even us strangers care.

Wishing you the best.