Venting Im convinced my family will be better off without me.

[dying_kwik2000]

I used to try to tell myself my suicide will make my family's life worse, but I am now so convinced that my erratic nature and depression has caused them to resent me. Especially my mother. I just want to due as soon as possible so I can be free. I feel like my sisters are ignoring me because I just make their lives harder. It makes me frustrated and sad. When I try to talk to my mother about how I'm feeling, she just seems not to understand how much emotional turmoil I'm going through. I know for a fact that my life ending will just give me peace.

 

[starboy2k]

your lowest moment in life will reveal two types of people…..

the ones who wants you to "get better"
&
the ones who wants you to "get useful"

 

[SadCryingBunny]

I used to try to tell myself my suicide will make my family's life worse, but I am now so convinced that my erratic nature and depression has caused them to resent me. Especially my mother. I just want to due as soon as possible so I can be free. I feel like my sisters are ignoring me because I just make their lives harder. It makes me frustrated and sad. When I try to talk to my mother about how I'm feeling, she just seems not to understand how much emotional turmoil I'm going through. I know for a fact that my life ending will just give me peace.

I'm in the exact same situation. They truly don't care. I've cut my arm and tried to hang myself waking them up screaming. I'll be gone soon with Nitrogen. People don't give a shit

 

[Forever Sleep]

your lowest moment in life will reveal two types of people…..

the ones who wants you to "get better"
&
the ones who wants you to "get useful"

That's so true. I think they also like to combine the two as in: 'You'd feel better if you were more useful.' When really- they just want us to be useful. So, they sugar coat it as something that is noble and will bring us satisfaction.

 

[starboy2k]

That's so true. I think they also like to combine the two as in: 'You'd feel better if you were more useful.' When really- they just want us to be useful. So, they sugar coat it as something that is noble and will bring us satisfaction.

literally my mom giving me bullshit advice over the phone…..
"you will feel better once you get another job"

(what she really meant was "I will feel better when YOU get another job so I won't have to provide for you, while expecting you to potentially provide for me no questions asked")

i dont seek her or anyone else's help anymore for this reason.

 

[OOUUneverover]

My death would definitely make my family's life easier. I have severe depression and a small assortment of mental illnesses that basically make me non functional most of the time.