Last response to this thread, I wanna get past this and is stressing me out. Any other messages or comments will be ignored and I am no longer going to get notifications from this thread. Here's a collection of responses I have that I wasn't mentally ready to put into the world when I read them. Thanks for the support.
You could at least give trying living as a happy failure a chance, you never know you might like it.
This is an interesting thought, I admit I was intrigued by it while attempting and now, but I ignored it due to my mental state. I can't visualize this outcome and it scares me.
If you have any lingering doubts at all, I would stop.
Well fucking said, even if I'd gone for it I know this place would've in good hands. And they say we are a pro death cult !
Came late. hope you made it out well even if it was semi-impulsive. ive recognized your profile here and you're pretty cool :)
Nice avatar.
I don't know your situation.
But you said that your mom picked university for you and you have to apply.
You should take your time to get to a better place first mentally. And then decide yourself what do you want to study and if you even want to go to uni or college. To me it seems like you are really tired and need a break from everything.
Thanks for the advice, it fell of deaf ears before but now I'm able to process it. That's all I have to say, though, because if I think too hard I can read my own thoughts.
I'm feeling extreme agony reading all of this, as if it's distressing me too.
This sounds incredibly distressing and terrifying. I was honestly considering night night as well but from what you've said (about it rarely working) and from this, idk. I guess it's back to trying to get sn or n for me.
Was neither extreme nor agonizing. More so annoying and bothersome of an attempt. It's have been more painful if I'd done it properly, but since things moved more slowly and it's clear I did a bad job at it, it didn't cut my blood supply enough to really suck. Left me in a bit of hysteria (?) though which I think came out well through my way of typing. I wonder if my behavior and numbness can be attributed to my longer time of holding my carotid arteries down, perhaps my mistake kept me conscious to experience some of what I otherwise wouldn't? Who knows, I can only guess and that's one of the bits of information my body isn't instinctually filling in for me. Overall I'd definitely do it again.
Glad you're still here. I haven't been on this forum very long. But you've been one of my favorites on here.
Sorry for the stupid question. But what is the night night method?
Self done blood choke. You crush the two arteries in your neck to stop blood supply. Ideally painless and fast, which I have been able to attest to, but this time I didn't do it properly. The megathread is a better source of information and don't take my experiences as truth because everyone's biology is different.
@Imprisoned re: "night night," that sounds complicated and unpleasant. @Abyssal there's gotta be a better way than that for you...?
Maybe there is, I wouldn't know. I'll still stick to night night, though. I like the idea of being unable to sit in my anxiety as I wait for sn to work, this seems ideal to me.
Also idk why but sometimes I don't get notifications for tags, like this one. I just happened to find it.
me too, what's up with that? Seems to be happening to me more recently.
Do what you want bro but think twice no one care about you in this website its your life think twice
thanks for the wisdom 140+ IQ master, but I'll choose to ignore that bit about nobody caring.
It might be a good idea to take a step back from the forum for a while before making the final call. Seeing so much suffering bundled up in one place can give you a very skewed perspective on life that may not accurately reflect your own circumstances.
Weird to be on the receiving end of this advice, but I'll do that if just because I feel like the boy who cried wolf. I need to get my brain back together again, because I haven't fully recovered from the previous mental instability.
Oh, hey! You're safe! Did the impulsive desire go away? Or are you planning on giving it another go here soon?
Desire is gone, but my brain is not mentally recovered. I can't seem to understand my own thoughts if I think too hard. Fingers crossed it goes away because it's hard to determine where to go from here.
Glad you are safe. I hope it gets better for you.
And uh I have a question I hope this doesn't sound selfish in some way but, I know, night night isn't that reliable since it is hard to put on work but do you have any tips for someone who only has this method available? I plan to make an attempt on wednesday but I am afraid of doing something wrong.
Morally speaking, I feel uncomfortable teaching someone how to die, but I also understand this level of desperation and with this experience fresh in my mind I'll say what I can.
•Ideally it'll be painless as you won't hit the windpipe, but be prepared to do it anyways. I found I just endure that pain.
•careful with testing, you can give yourself brain damage.
•practice before jumping into it just to be sure this is what you want. When your vision starts to be funny, let go. If you feel an awful brain fog and headache then you did it properly.
•Whenever I do it, I find myself holding my breath. If you have been holding a spot long enough for you to need to take a breath, then you're doing it wrong.
Thanks for reading everyone.
