Venting I'm caged in by love

[BougainvilleaBlooms]

My life belongs to my family and they don't even want it when alive. I'll say I'm better off dead and they'll say no no we love you then leave when I stop saying it. Why? I want to die! I had my fill, now let me die? Thank you for giving me food and not hating me but I want to go now. You had did your best as aunts, cousins, and a mother. But you didn't listen to me when I needed the most. Fuck my older half-sister! She hated me for existing. And the family still talks to her. Fuck this family! I wanna kill myself so badly! But I have to wait until my mom dies.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you would feel angry at those people, as people only care when it benefits them. And nobody should be obligated to suffer in this world even if it makes other people sad, if people don't wish to deal with loss then they shouldn't procreate. But I get that it's awful and tiring feeling trapped here.