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[starleaf]

I was doing better,... but it feels like everything around me is totally falling apart and I have no idea at all how to deal with it. I am so alone. I feel like such a piece of shit. My dog attacked someone (they were okay) and it was my fault for not taking the right precautions, and I had to put him down. This was a while ago but I can't deal with it. Like all three of my closest relationships have totally fallen apart along with this. I am so alone. I am living with ptsd and I feel like it's totally destroying my life. Like I can't manage it and I am scared of people all the time whether I realize it or not. I just want to be held. I feel like I survived so much and it's an actual miracle I am alive... but for what? To feel like shit all the time? To have no idea who I can trust? I thought I was supposed to trust people, and to be kind, and that is what I did and I guess because of other people's traumas I got slapped in the face for that. And then I am expected to be understanding after years of being understanding. I feel like feeling like this I am being weak but I just feel so lonely and defeated. And like no one cares.

 

[s1mplem3]

Is dog alive?

 

[starleaf]

Is dog alive?

no I had to put him down

 

[TAW122]

I'm sorry to hear about your situation and your dog. We are here for you and will offer support to whatever you decide to do. I hope you are able to find peace in whatever decision you decide on.

 

[Lostandfound7]

Sorry to hear about ur dog luv..I can relate cuz my dog (rottweiler) also bit a friend in my home 2 yrs ago. (She was taunting him n ran).I was so devastated n apologetic. I cried for days..(She faked like it was all good, then one day just never spoke to me again). But honestly, I would have much rather to lose her "friendship", than have to put down my dog..that must have been n still is extremely painful for u..my condolences

Have u considered adopting another doggie? I know it won't b the same as ur beloved, but it will def b good company n rid u of the loneliness..I'm sorry again

 

[theguineapigking]

I'm very sorry. This society is really bad. I don't know your dog's personality,but so often they are put down simply for biting someone out of fear,even if it does barely any damage. If that person wants to be a bitch about it,then the dog can be put down. It's so sad. I'm very sad for you.



You're not totally alone here. At least you have this community that cares about you.

You're NOT weak. NOT NOT NOT! STRONG is the better word. To go through all that and to still be functioning,is amazing. I know that many people expect you to be there for them,but when you need them,they just disappear or pretend you're not there. Unfortunately,it's all too common.

Life is hard. It's up to you if you want to live it. Perhaps you find meaning. Perhaps you have family that you stay around for. But life itself is pretty shitty. I honestly can't say that it's worth it. But if you decide you think it is,than for you,it is.

Please feel free to talk to us. Whether that be to Vent or just to talk. Is there anyone in your life that you can talk with such as siblings,any friends, or parents?


I wish you the best in the meantime.

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I'm sorry for your pain, and that you feel alone. I hope it gets better for you.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I'm so sorry. Your poor dog, you must feel awful. My sister's dog has a tendency to bite if you piss him off and she lives in fear of him biting someone. It's not his fault, it' just the way he is. It must be so crushing to have to do that. It would break my heart into pieces.
It is difficult to know who to trust. I trust no-one on the basis of who they are; if I trust them at all it's on the basis of how they act with me. Someone you can trust should be able to demonstrate their reliability through their actions, not because they want you to trust them.

 

[starleaf]

I'm sorry to hear about your situation and your dog. We are here for you and will offer support to whatever you decide to do. I hope you are able to find peace in whatever decision you decide on.

Thank you <3

Sorry to hear about ur dog luv..I can relate cuz my dog (rottweiler) also bit a friend in my home 2 yrs ago. (She was taunting him n ran).I was so devastated n apologetic. I cried for days..(She faked like it was all good, then one day just never spoke to me again). But honestly, I would have much rather to lose her "friendship", than have to put down my dog..that must have been n still is extremely painful for u..my condolences

Have u considered adopting another doggie? I know it won't b the same as ur beloved, but it will def b good company n rid u of the loneliness..I'm sorry again

I am sorry that happened. It's traumatic when that happens. I wont get another dog because I really can't take care of one right now, but I am moving to a house where there are dogs. My dog was supposed to be my friends dog but she couldn't or wouldn't care for him. So I did. This whole situation totally destroyed the friendship as well.

I'm very sorry. This society is really bad. I don't know your dog's personality,but so often they are put down simply for biting someone out of fear,even if it does barely any damage. If that person wants to be a bitch about it,then the dog can be put down. It's so sad. I'm very sad for you.



You're not totally alone here. At least you have this community that cares about you.

You're NOT weak. NOT NOT NOT! STRONG is the better word. To go through all that and to still be functioning,is amazing. I know that many people expect you to be there for them,but when you need them,they just disappear or pretend you're not there. Unfortunately,it's all too common.

Life is hard. It's up to you if you want to live it. Perhaps you find meaning. Perhaps you have family that you stay around for. But life itself is pretty shitty. I honestly can't say that it's worth it. But if you decide you think it is,than for you,it is.

Please feel free to talk to us. Whether that be to Vent or just to talk. Is there anyone in your life that you can talk with such as siblings,any friends, or parents?


I wish you the best in the meantime.

Thank you. My dog was really good with me but I realize now he wasn't a safe dog in general. It was not the person's fault at all. I didn't adopt him on purpose, but friend got him when I was living with her then didn't care for him. When I took him in she talked about him being a shared dog but ultimately she just left me with him. It destroyed the friendship and I feel so betrayed by her. Yes many people expect me to be there for them, or our friendships or relationships are just based on that. It sucks because I am breaking down and I feel at this point I don't even know how to be human. I do have a therapist and we are doing EMDR soon so that could help. I am grateful because I do not have a place besides this where I can be fully honest. It is a huge relief.

 

[a.n.kirillov]

I'm sorry for that. I don't know the exact circumstances of what happened but I have to disagree with someone calling society evil for that in general because I have been attacked by people's dogs before who were clearly unfit for handling these animals. Some dogs are straight up dangerous in the hands of the wrong people.

Our neighbours dogs for example are such dangerous breeds and they constantly slip between the cracks of their fence and stalk random people. I had to enter my house from the backside climbing over the neighbours fence several times because these animals patrolled the street while their owners were gone. One of my neighbours had to jump into the mailman's car because he was charged by one of them.

OP it's okay everyone makes mistakes. Putting down your own dog must be a horrible experience. Are you still allowed to own a dog now or are you somehow prohibited? Was the person injured in any way?

 

[starleaf]

I'm so sorry. Your poor dog, you must feel awful. My sister's dog has a tendency to bite if you piss him off and she lives in fear of him biting someone. It's not his fault, it' just the way he is. It must be so crushing to have to do that. It would break my heart into pieces.
It is difficult to know who to trust. I trust no-one on the basis of who they are; if I trust them at all it's on the basis of how they act with me. Someone you can trust should be able to demonstrate their reliability through their actions, not because they want you to trust them.

Thank you that is so helpful to hear. I am sorry your sister struggles with that also. I hope it can be okay on her end for her. Yeah I am seeing some people I trusted totally were not trustworthy people at all. It is heartbreaking. I want to be close with people I can trust but I don't know how to find that. I feel really messed up from it.

I'm sorry for that. I don't know the exact circumstances of what happened but I have to disagree with someone calling society evil for that in general because I have been attacked by people's dogs before who were clearly unfit for handling these animals. Some dogs are straight up dangerous in the hands of the wrong people.

Our neighbours dogs for example are such dangerous breeds and they constantly slip between the cracks of their fence and stalk random people. I had to enter my house from the backside climbing over the neighbours fence several times because these animals patrolled the street while their owners were gone. One of my neighbours had to jump into the mailman's car because he was charged by one of them.

OP it's okay everyone makes mistakes. Putting down your own dog must be a horrible experience. Are you still allowed to own a dog now or are you somehow prohibited? Was the person injured in any way?

Hi I totally agree with you. My dog was not safe. I have also been bitten by a dog before and after that I realized why there are these rules. People should never be unsafe because of an animal. I don't want another dog. I had never owned a dog before and I became this dog's owner because a friend got him and then wouldn't care for him properly. It was not something I chose for myself, I just wanted to make sure the dog wasn't being neglected like he had been. The person was injured, not seriously. I feel so so awful about it because they did not deserve that.

 

[a.n.kirillov]

Thank you that is so helpful to hear. I am sorry your sister struggles with that also. I hope it can be okay on her end for her. Yeah I am seeing some people I trusted totally were not trustworthy people at all. It is heartbreaking. I want to be close with people I can trust but I don't know how to find that. I feel really messed up from it.

Hi I totally agree with you. My dog was not safe. I have also been bitten by a dog before and after that I realized why there are these rules. People should never be unsafe because of an animal. I don't want another dog. I had never owned a dog before and I became this dog's owner because a friend got him and then wouldn't care for him properly. It was not something I chose for myself, I just wanted to make sure the dog wasn't being neglected like he had been. The person was injured, not seriously. I feel so so awful about it because they did not deserve that.

You are ahead of 99.9 percent of human beings on this Earth for admitting that you made a mistake and I respect that immensely! Also props for adopting the dog in the first place, you seem like a good person to me.

I hope things turn around for you but no one can promise that. You said you are moving soon, do you look forward to that?

 

[starleaf]

You are ahead of 99.9 percent of human beings on this Earth for admitting that you made a mistake and I respect that immensely! Also props for adopting the dog in the first place, you seem like a good person to me.

I hope things turn around for you but no one can promise that. You said you are moving soon, do you look forward to that?

Thank you so much. I hate myself so much for making that mistake. I also genuinely thought he was okay as a dog, everyone I talked to said he was fine just a bit reactive. I 100% made a big mistake though, I don't want to go into it. I always try not fuck up one for obvious reasons like everyone else, and also because of how I was abused. I just feel like I failed on so many levels and I can't get myself out of it. It might take time. Yeah I am hoping moving near nature and with a room mate will help me. Living alone isn't healthy for me.