I agree OP. I'm sorry you had to deal with this in your life. I know the struggle. It's such a painful experience to observe and be an onlooker of others who also enjoy themselves in a healthy balanced relationship and have sexual companion pleasures. Life is very unfair genetically some of us are born genetically appealing to others and some of us are in between and then there are those below who will never have the chance at love. We are victims of genetic chance, lookism, lack of status, and lack of social mobility. Life could have been fair if humans lived naturally however today we live in man made structures based on fear, ego, competition, and money. To live a life of exclusion is a life of misery. Of course you will feel that way. I'm sorry this was forced upon you without your say. I'm also happy I discovered that humanity praises looks over anything else, however that's nature. I just wish they could have been less cruel to others born genetically unappealing however they won't because our looks are unfavorable it also shows an underlying issue in society of look "classism" .
If you don't have it life will be very difficult as a social being. I'm sorry you endured this unfairness you don't deserve it. Your pain is unique to you. Know one can understand but you.
For one to guilt and force us into a life of unfulfilled living is selfish and greedy. Therefore I can end myself if I wish. Once my debts are paid I can be free!
I will also never have love because I'm too not attractive enough, I always been miserable since age 14 I'm always over looked and guys don't like me or my personality because of what I have experienced it's hard for me to be carefree confident and sociable. I'm a grump lol because of how others treated me in my early phase of life for having incurable acne disease. No man can ever love me because I have back acne that looks like a bunch of mosquito bites that make me unhappy about myself and miserable. Also my skin on my face is incredibly damaged from so many product use in which the dermatologist industry capitalizes on people with skin conditions, if they wanted to solve it they would just give us the cure.
I can never have the guys I desire and want because I'm not pretty enough, socialable enough, and not interesting enough. It makes me miserable and sad. And if someone is to tell me it gets better they can screw off, I hate when people invalidate our feelings and tell us to just get a hobby, workout and it will work itself out "bro" . Oh the joyful bubble they live in, can't seem to see anything outside themselves. To live in this life is a life of misery and exclusion. Who wants that? There is no joy in that. We are human we have desires too, we want to be sociable and interact with others however we can't because they don't like us for our looks and social status. It's sad.
it's another thing I don't like about people and society and shows the inequalities bread out of unnatural living. This is the root reason to why I wish to CTB because I can never enjoy life being an unattractive woman and can't have the men I desire. My problem cannot be solved and it's inhumane to keep me here
