Venting I’m afraid

[rotten]

I want to die but I'm afraid of going brain dead or ending up in hell. I'm useless in real life so there's no reason for me to be around. My family looks at me as a failure and I get the feeling that they resent me. I'm alone I have nobody…the one person I cared about I drove away. Everyday I live in fear of getting abused. So I really don't need to be here. Yet I'm too much of a coward to do it and that's one of the many reasons I hate myself so fucking much.

 

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Some people feel a calling. They have a destiny and they sense it even when there are challenges. If you don´t feel a calling then there is no actual reason for you to be "here" in this horrible world (which is itself a hellrealm).