I'm afraid of failure

[toasterbath]

Yeah, all of those scenarios go through my head too. What's been going through my head with being found is, what happens if a neighbor (I live in an apartment) hears me groan or really loud snoring? What happens if they call the police. How are the police going to get through my door, they'll have to break it open....great. Then they take me in an ambulance while what, my apartment is wide open for people to steal my stuff? And then I think, what am I going to wear while released from the hospital, they'll probably have to cut my clothes off. So what do I do wander on the street in hospital clothes? And what is my landlord going to do if the police do break the door down? How am I going to get back in my apartment....all wearing hospital clothing? So hopefully my neighbors do what they do now....they don't care a lick about me and don't pay attention to any noises. I hope they just ignore any groaning and snoring. They should. But get this. One of my neighbors was talking to our other neighbor and I heard her say, "Yeah he says he wants to die, that he wants to kill himself". She clearly heard me as she was walking by my bedroom window. Because I say it all the time, "I need to die, I've got to go soon". So they were definitely talking about me. They haven't done anything though....I just hope they won't be on any type of alert.

Those are all valid concerns. I think some people like play music or TV shows I don't know what other things could like block out those noises. But then again depending on the time of day that could be like a noise complaint issue. I would hope the hospital is nice enough to lend some scrubs or something I didn't even think of that Man there really is just so many variables involved.

 

[Judy Garland]

Those are all valid concerns. I think some people like play music or TV shows I don't know what other things could like block out those noises. But then again depending on the time of day that could be like a noise complaint issue. I would hope the hospital is nice enough to lend some scrubs or something I didn't even think of that Man there really is just so many variables involved.

Yup, a lot of scenarios that just go through my head. The one scenario where I die, doesn't surface as much as I need it to.

 

[Cantbereal]

Completely understandable. For some reason though I don't have the fear of failure whatsoever. I know it's going to work. Especially since I'm using DD. Haven't seen one thread of any failure using DD. I guess maybe I'll bag a little extra with me in case for some reason I do feel I think that's part of the reason why I'm getting the tent as well in case if I do feel I'll wake up and I'll be inside of my tent and not just laying in the middle of the woods and pitch black darkness and not be able to see where I'm going to get back home. I can just hangout in the tent. Actually come to think about it I have had a fear failure a couple of times I just haven't thought about it recently because I feel like it's going to work but if it doesn't work that's going to suck and I hope that I don't sleep longer than the time that my email is scheduled to send out. THAT would be a terrible situation. Come to think about it maybe i should schedule it to send 2 days after. Wishing you the best Judy.

This is a fear as well the pooping in the past part but going back to that article that person probably didn't fast and didn't do anything properly and for all we know they didn't even drink water with it.
I definitely don't want to vomit and shart at the same time. That would be shitty.

What's DD?