Help Im a gay male in my mid 30s and this is it. I'm planning for tomorrow to ctb. At the latest Wednesday. I just want somebody to talk to.

[anonymous2025]

Hey all. I'm sure some of you will remember seeing some of my post so I won't list my reasons for this here. This time I'm going out with a definitive method. Unlike In the past where I have tried methods like hanging, unintentional overdose (in 2017 somebody found me slumped over my car stearing wheel at a stop sign in ft Lauderdale. Several narcans later I arrived at Broward general. Its been a very tough road and I feel as though Ive concoured as much as humanmly possible. growing up, both my parents were heavy vodka drinkers, I also came out at 14 and that did not go well until later in life. I do want to mention, when I was 18 I got into a 6 year domestic partnership that was the best experience of my life, he was around the same age and he took me out of that mess. . im certainly not a religious person but I was raised Catholic and I absolutely have hate in my heart for any creator there is. The things I have witnessed just reaffirmed my belief that it is completely evil and problibly gloats watching all the suffering going on in this corrupt .and I want nothing to do with it or his stupid fake president trump I'd gladly go to hell if it means not worshipping a monster. I lost my mom at 19, cared after my father until 2013 when he past, both grand parents and then my sister in 2019 by intentional overdose. I already have arrangements to be buried in the same cemetery with my sister, I have no more living immediate family and I recently distance myself from anybody I knew. Everybody is a complete stranger now. so I'm just leaving a note for the medical examiner. I keep reminiscing about 2017 when I snorted a bunch of H. I just knocked out and everything went black until waking upon the er. Im currently trying to decide where to go ctb. I'm an avid hiker and prefer woods but would have to be during the day because it's too cold at night. And during the day there's people around. I also have the option to just relax in my car. If anybody wants to chat let me know. Just fyi. I'm currently in Georgia. USA.


Method pure SN 20gs

Huge supply of opioids. I'm going to try this first.

 

[loakms8]

i am gay too so i know the pain. i am from malaysia.

life sucks, and being gay makes it worst in alot of ways due to many fucked up humans in this world

 

[Cosmophobic]

You've had it rough man sorry the only thing I can really relate on is being raised Catholic. That God always worked through guilt and fear I just couldn't see it as a child. I let the whole idea of him go.

Anyway that stuff is probably the lesser of your worries I hope you can get talking to someone that can relate to your experience more.

 

[cloud;.]

Im not gay, but I am a bisexual female... if you need to speak to anyone i am here.

 

[Chems_Solution]

Hey man, please rethink of this again. You had it rough, I'm so sorry for what you've been experiencing all the time. I myself suffer from recurrent mdd since i was 11, cptsd thanks to sexual assault by my lovely uncles, abuses from my own family. I was also diagnosed with gad, asd and adhd inattentive type. I myself had 5 attempts since 11, and now that I'm free for months now without meds, i can assure you there are far better things in this rotting world than we can ever imagine in our own corrupted mind. You're hurt, i know that. I hope the best for your recovery, and i hope you find not just someone but people that love you the way you are, there are people that loves you in this world, you haven't seen them yet or even haven't recognized them, until then you have to live long enough to see it yourself. Please, for yourself and your future loved ones.

 

[fedup1982]

I'm so sorry you lost your whole immediate family, that must be terrible. I dont know how I'll cope when I lose my father. I dont think I will.

 

[bgh3192]

Hey all. I'm sure some of you will remember seeing some of my post so I won't list my reasons for this here. This time I'm going out with a definitive method. Unlike In the past where I have tried methods like hanging, unintentional overdose (in 2017 somebody found me slumped over my car stearing wheel at a stop sign in ft Lauderdale. Several narcans later I arrived at Broward general. Its been a very tough road and I feel as though Ive concoured as much as humanmly possible. growing up, both my parents were heavy vodka drinkers, I also came out at 14 and that did not go well until later in life. I do want to mention, when I was 18 I got into a 6 year domestic partnership that was the best experience of my life, he was around the same age and he took me out of that mess. . im certainly not a religious person but I was raised Catholic and I absolutely have hate in my heart for any creator there is. The things I have witnessed just reaffirmed my belief that it is completely evil and problibly gloats watching all the suffering going on in this corrupt .and I want nothing to do with it or his stupid fake president trump I'd gladly go to hell if it means not worshipping a monster. I lost my mom at 19, cared after my father until 2013 when he past, both grand parents and then my sister in 2019 by intentional overdose. I already have arrangements to be buried in the same cemetery with my sister, I have no more living immediate family and I recently distance myself from anybody I knew. Everybody is a complete stranger now. so I'm just leaving a note for the medical examiner. I keep reminiscing about 2017 when I snorted a bunch of H. I just knocked out and everything went black until waking upon the er. Im currently trying to decide where to go ctb. I'm an avid hiker and prefer woods but would have to be during the day because it's too cold at night. And during the day there's people around. I also have the option to just relax in my car. If anybody wants to chat let me know. Just fyi. I'm currently in Georgia. USA.


Method pure SN 20gs

Huge supply of opioids. I'm going to try this first.

if I was more ready to CTB, I'd hitch a ride with you! You are strong for enduring all you have. I'm glad you at least had six years with a good partner. I lost my husband to drugs going on 7 years ago- I've never known real happiness since. I wish I had some words that could comfort you.

 

[Ashu]

Hey man, please rethink of this again. You had it rough, I'm so sorry for what you've been experiencing all the time. I myself suffer from recurrent mdd since i was 11, cptsd thanks to sexual assault by my lovely uncles, abuses from my own family. I was also diagnosed with gad, asd and adhd inattentive type. I myself had 5 attempts since 11, and now that I'm free for months now without meds, i can assure you there are far better things in this rotting world than we can ever imagine in our own corrupted mind. You're hurt, i know that. I hope the best for your recovery, and i hope you find not just someone but people that love you the way you are, there are people that loves you in this world, you haven't seen them yet or even haven't recognized them, until then you have to live long enough to see it yourself. Please, for yourself and your future loved ones.

"New member", OK, that hopefully explains it. It's illegal here to try to change people's minds about their decision. That's what the world outside is for. This is a special safe space.

 

[anonymous2025]

Hey man, please rethink of this again. You had it rough, I'm so sorry for what you've been experiencing all the time. I myself suffer from recurrent mdd since i was 11, cptsd thanks to sexual assault by my lovely uncles, abuses from my own family. I was also diagnosed with gad, asd and adhd inattentive type. I myself had 5 attempts since 11, and now that I'm free for months now without meds, i can assure you there are far better things in this rotting world than we can ever imagine in our own corrupted mind. You're hurt, i know that. I hope the best for your recovery, and i hope you find not just someone but people that love you the way you are, there are people that loves you in this world, you haven't seen them yet or even haven't recognized them, until then you have to live long enough to see it yourself. Please, for yourself and your future loved ones.

Hey I appreciate your feedback. But there is no turning back for me. If you only knew what is about to go down in my life you would completely understand. I use utilize sasu to find like minded people and that brings me a sense of peace. It's all inevitable in the end.