I just need somewhere to vent, I understand this is nowhere near what a lot of people on here are going through, I'm not meaning to trivialize anything
I am a straight A student. Through depression and psychosis, suicide attempts and hospital stays, I have gotten straight As. I've dropped out of college only to go back the next semester and once again got straight As. And this semester will be the first time where I don't do that. I'm not failing classes, I know because of that I shouldn't care, but the one thing I have had going for me was my grades. It's the only thing I have going for me, it's the only thing I'm good at, it's the only thing I have pride in.
Maybe I can kill myself before the grades go in and I can die with a 4.0
I'm sorry, I know this is really minor, but everyone in my life would probably just say it doesn't matter and tease me for caring
I am a straight A student. Through depression and psychosis, suicide attempts and hospital stays, I have gotten straight As. I've dropped out of college only to go back the next semester and once again got straight As. And this semester will be the first time where I don't do that. I'm not failing classes, I know because of that I shouldn't care, but the one thing I have had going for me was my grades. It's the only thing I have going for me, it's the only thing I'm good at, it's the only thing I have pride in.
Maybe I can kill myself before the grades go in and I can die with a 4.0
I'm sorry, I know this is really minor, but everyone in my life would probably just say it doesn't matter and tease me for caring
