I have watched my grandmother lose her dignity and fearfully fade away as we did whhat we could to make her fee less alone. I have no illusions that this is anything anyone would want to rexperience. It takes a stronger person than me to face that hell.
As for the tiny moments of happijness-those too are relative. The child born in a wartorn nation into the arms of terror and horror,may have a moment when their eyes behold a baby bird seeing light for the forst time and just that single tiny moment of jpoy is something fo pure and unadulterated,it can't be denied that those thngs can be the ones that added together,keep you goimg on. The child born into wealth who never knows a true friendship because their is always the ebil of greed to intervene with the intentions of friends means these are the many wealthy people we see that suffer misery and depression. It sounds c heesy,yeah it is,but it's somehow kept me around this long. I want to be abvle to prepare my body to make it useful to someone who can do it jutice. I am little more than a toxocs dyping ground right now,but within a few weeks,this cab change if I choose,
Somewhere ouyt there in the dark sky,sparkling in the distancxe si death,so beautiful that it also brings a glimmer of joy,for for most fleeting of second's. These things are all sounding cheesy as hell. But inside us we all have those moments that have meant something-the tinmiest of things that would make us feel ashamed to say it, but they have oiffered a sliver of hope. This is all there will be at the end, ifg we are lucky.
My children don't talk to me. I gave them everything,but iyt was never enoough. I have bled every drop for them and would take every bullet...the reason say these things is because it is what I have seen. This worldm is full of such hate and horror, yet there is also beauty and joy somewhwrw in there too. Honesty is always painful but5 it the truth is everything.
The reason the old man and woman suffered such torment....because of the joy they feel just from knowing you are there.
It's hard to understand if you have bot experienced apenthood.
Telling my kids they would have to deal with my unnatural death was shameful, but they deserve the truth as difficult as it may be.The truth is everything- trust anmd honesty show respec t and althpough showing like this with yout actions is important, it is also crucial to say these things alouds with your words. Too often thes thingds are assumed and it is believed that there is a tacit understanding, but speaking such words with our mouths is vital and can mean everything. Don't leave it too late.
My aunt and uncle went on a city break for their wedding anniversary. He felyt a bit uncomfortable after a heavy meal and went to lie down. He never woke again. Don't let your mind be filled with regrets. A fiuneral is not for the pouring out of shame at the unspoken. Speak those words and hold them i9n your arms. For it may be the last chance you get and it is everything. It takres a strong person to admit life's uncomfortable truths.
You are that strong person. Share your love.
I have an easy fix for the wealthy people you seem to sympathize so much with..it's called a trash can.
Throw your money inside and watch your problems tied to it disappear...then wait as the panic sets in when you realize just how god damn lucky you were to have the freedom and benefits that the mighty dollar buys.
Seriously I have had enough of people here turning privileges into a problem as bad as being without said privileges.
It is disgusting and supremely out of touch with reality.
Anyone can have problems, this is true, but when you try to turn the best side of the coin of chance into an issue, you're really reaching for some major bullshit.
I just can't imagine actually complaining about my own privileges, like having a roof over my head and food on the table.
Having these things doesn't mean I won't be susceptible to suicide by other means, but to make what I do have into an issue worth lamenting about, when some people are literally rotting with empty stomachs on the street, would make me a truly despicable excuse for a human being.
You have to be genuinely delusional and brainwashed by the very spoils you deny, in order for such a mindset to continue to flourish.
As far as the rest of your comment, I'm having trouble understanding it to be frank, I'm guessing you are either not familiar with technology or English is not your first language, which is fine and not your fault, but it also makes it difficult for some of us to understand what you're getting at.
If I misinterpreted what you were saying because of this, then I apologize, but I think that one section was clear enough for me to respond to.
As another member said, you may mean well but you're not coming across that way, we can't live miserable lives just for minuscule moments that distract us.
To have but a taste of sweetness just serves to make an unfortunate existence all the more wretched, all the more bitter.
..I am sorry that your children don't talk to you though, to have a family member treat you as if you do not exist is certainly painful, especially if you invested a great deal into them. I am an antinatalist so I disagree with your decision to procreate but I also recognize some of the suffering you outline.
