If you were abused as a child, would you shred your childhood photos?

[Ambivalent1]

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[loyalskateboard]

No. It can be sad because it makes me realise how young I was but I'd never throw them away.

 

[day]

I enjoy seeing photos of me when I was young despite feeling like I was born in the wrong body. I look happy in them even after being SA by 2 family members. Innocence and not a clue what was going to be in my head as an adult. Now that I think about it I made it 13yrs before ever really thinking about CTB.

Sorry for the ramble but I suppose the answer is no, I love those pictures.

 

[EmmaQanbana]

Short answer? Yeah.

More detailed answer? Well. Quite literally because I hate a lot about myself, body, face, mentality, list goes on. It's clear that I did something to my family to make them do things to me. And of course I'd hate to relive, maybe I'm a coward? I don't know.

 

[cgrtt.brns]

as a teenager i destroyed any pictures of myself i could find. now im an adult i kind of like looking at old pictures of me, my parents had a disk drive with some pictures that i never knew about and finding them was kinda nice. all of my memories of my childhood are only negative, but seeing the pictures reminds me of the few times when it wasnt so bad, when my parents decided to be decent for a day out somewhere. any pictures of me at home tho make me feel quite sad, that place is full of bad memories and seeing me as a little child in that environment just reminds me of what happened outside of the moment the picture was taken if that makes sense. although i like looking at the pictures myself, i hate when my parents look at them or have them in frames or use them as their phone homescreen picture etc.

 

[StolenLife]

I already did that. I destroyed any childhood photos that had my abusers in it. I don't like staring at my childhood photos anyway because it just reminds me of youth and innocence I lost.

 

[FinalCountdown]

No, I was beat as a child on a consistent basis, but I've forgiven my mother. I can understand what she did wasn't right, and I can also now understand why she was that way. One day, if I were ever to have a child, I will do better, and do everything I can to give the childhood I wish I had. Also, it helps me to see my childhood photos to see how little I was, being beaten like a full grown adult, and to put it in perspective of how ill my mother had to be to do that to a little girl.

 

[Ambivalent1]

I already did that. I destroyed any childhood photos that had my abusers in it. I don't like staring at my childhood photos anyway because it just reminds me of youth and innocence I lost.

Did it feel good to shred them? I've been carrying them around with me all these years in a little photo album.

 

[lna_]

i blacked out my dad with a pen on all of the family photos i have or i dabbed a bit of water on him then used the side of a coin to scratch him out. i wanted to keep all the photos of my mom i had after she passed but wanted to try to forget what my dad looks like which has kinda worked over the years. now all those photos make me sad so i never look at them anyway but it's nice to have them just in case one day i want to remember what my mom looked like

 

[Ambivalent1]

i blacked out my dad with a pen on all of the family photos i have or i dabbed a bit of water on him then used the side of a coin to scratch him out. i wanted to keep all the photos of my mom i had after she passed but wanted to try to forget what my dad looks like which has kinda worked over the years. now all those photos make me sad so i never look at them anyway but it's nice to have them just in case one day i want to remember what my mom looked like

Yeah I'm worried I'll regret shredding them

 

[cgrtt.brns]

Yeah I'm worried I'll regret shredding them

could you maybe make digital copies of them so you can shred them to have that sense of relief but without actually loosing the pictures? or is having them physically more important to you?

 

[Ambivalent1]

could you maybe make digital copies of them so you can shred them to have that sense of relief but without actually loosing the pictures? or is having them physically more important to you?

I can take pictures of them with my phone but it won't be as clear

 

[smpkie]

My parents made me dislike myself when I was younger and I would always say no to photos in any way I could. I would even start crying! Such a shame, I wish I had more photos of myself in my childhood. I could just rip out or scribble my parents from the picture, but I never thought of my future back then.

 

[noname223]

My mom physically abused me almost daily for more than a decade. Last christmas my grandma gave me a present a picture of me as a child at my old home. And told me "look how happy you were..."

My family consists only of complete morons. However they support me financially and with the household. Though I plan to kill myself in the future. The latest point will be when my parents are dead I am just too much of a wreck to survive on my own.

Accidentally I destroyed the glass around the picture. It was really an accident however I had to chuckle about it to be honest.

 

[axxxu]

I remember I tore a photo of my 5th grade class photos. I remember how half of the class bullied me, especially one kid who I was friends with. The bullying was sudden after I came back from a long vacation, I didn't know what transpired to make my classmate back then dislike me, but it was painful.

Being true, I'm not mad at any of them now, I try not to be. But I was thirteenth and angsty, I don't remember how I felt upon tearing it but I felt I would regret it because my mother would get mad.

I still think that's stupid, instead of destroying my old photos I don't look at them. I hate thinking about the memories.

 

[Ambivalent1]

I remember I tore a photo of my 5th grade class photos. I remember how half of the class bullied me, especially one kid who I was friends with. The bullying was sudden after I came back from a long vacation, I didn't know what transpired to make my classmate back then dislike me, but it was painful.

Being true, I'm not mad at any of them now, I try not to be. But I was thirteenth and angsty, I don't remember how I felt upon tearing it but I felt I would regret it because my mother would get mad.

I still think that's stupid, instead of destroying my old photos I don't look at them. I hate thinking about the memories.

I have limited space. Keeping them without looking would be pointless

 

[Csmith8827]

Yes, probably.

 

[StolenLife]

Did it feel good to shred them? I've been carrying them around with me all these years in a little photo album.

I suppose that at the time it did, as it felt like I'm severing the connections I had with them, and it felt as if I'm erasing the bad part of my life. However nowadays it feels like my actions were childlish and my emotions got in the way. Still, I can't bear to look at those horrible people.