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lostmyself
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- Jan 28, 2021
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What was going through your mind right before you attempted to ctb? Were you devastated that your planned failed? So many thoughts running through my mind.
I'm so sorry. There's a nerve right next to the artery and you were likely cutting that by accident. They lay back to back. I hope you can find peace at some point.At one of my attempt I remember feeling very desperate and started to cut my neck with a razor blade. I cut deep and reached the left carotid artery but I felt I was being electrocuted when I tried to cut the artery. I couldn't bear the pain so I gave up. I was very angry that I came that close and failed. I was taken to hospital and during the journey I thought about opening the car door and throw myself at the road but I didn't do it. At the hospital they fix the cut and the next day I was taken to a psych ward. I really regret not dying that day.
Yeah but there is also nerve on the artery and I was mostly cutting that.I'm so sorry. There's a nerve right next to the artery and you were likely cutting that by accident. They lay back to back. I hope you can find peace at some point.
That's what I meantYeah but there is also nerve on the artery and I was mostly cutting that.
So I've attempted a lot of times so I'll start with the first time I was hospitalized after a failed attempt...What was going through your mind right before you attempted to ctb? Were you devastated that your planned failed? So many thoughts running through my mind.