If you had N, would you ctb faster?

[CantDoIt]

Would you ctb faster if you had N? Yes or no? For me, I'm sure it would speed things up and it would feel great for me having it for whenever I wanted.

 

[Defenestration]

Yes of course ,today

 

[Marco77]

I would do it immediately and this is proof that there is no survival instinct.

 

[Defenestration]

Je le ferais immédiatement et c'est la preuve qu'il n'y a pas d'instinct de survie.

There IS Si ,but for N less

 

[Marco77]

There IS Si ,but for N less

If there is a survival instinct, it is always there. What stops us is the fear of pain. If the necks of the hanged could be anesthetized they wouldn't think twice about hanging themselves. During the covid pandemic many friends and acquaintances died because they did not want to be intubated in hospital. Why didn't the survival instinct kick in? The tube down the throat saves lives. I know aspiring bricklayers who have given up work because they can't handle great heights. Yet work saves lives.
And a good part of fear is cultural. Otherwise there would be no seppuku and many other human idiocies.

 

[divinemistress36]

Hell yes

 

[maniac116]

If I had N, I'd be gone long ago!

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd be long gone if I had access to such a painless way to free myself from the terrible cruelty and torment of existing, personally I'd never wish to exist. I only hope to never exist again where I cannot suffer in any way and all is forgotten about for me, in my case peace could only lie in eternal nothingness where I'm finally free from this existence I always saw as a terrible, tragic mistake that just brought me pain.

 

[Tac0Johnz]

Where was it 10 years ago? Lol I'd take it then and I definitely take it now (especially if you don't want to go to work today)

 

[AllHopeIsLost]

I think about this question alot myself

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Yes, I'd be gone in less than a few hours of obtaining N. I'd easily be gone as all I'd have to do is drink a bottle

 

[tinyboxer]

No. I want access to N because I believe we deserve to be in control of when we end our lives. Similarly when I ctb I want it to be extremely meditated. I don't want it to be something I do while in crisis mode I'd like the experience to be peaceful in all aspects. Definitely intending to keep my N for some time when it arrives.

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

Oh yes. I can't wait to get off this wretched planet. My date with death is like a year overdue, simply because the logistics of getting N are complicated for me (but doable) so I've had to postpone several times. But I am getting there slowly. I hope it's worth the wait lmao. I've always wanted to just pass in my sleep.

 

[Thisisme373]

Absolutely 100%

 

[Emeralds]

No. I wouldn't rush it. I'm not going to ctb until I'm ready to do it. For me it's not a matter of obtaining a specific method before I do it. It's a matter of taking my time and being sure that it's really the right decision and also that I'm at the point where I've accepted im out of options and ready to go through with it.

 

[HopeToStay]

If i had N i'd potentially ctb without really even being suicidal.

Because, even if i was guaranteed a 10/10 life from hereon out. Is not existing actually any worse than a 10/10 life?

You can't really say it is as it's not really comparable, you don't exist, and you can't even experience that you don't exist, or that you've missed out on anything.

So if not existing is no worse than having a 10/10 life, then not existing is also as good as having a 10/10 life, and i can guarantee a 10/10 life by taking N, falling to sleep and never waking up.

I want to get hold of N so i always have a fallback option if my circumstances get too difficult, but i can't guarantee i wouldn't just take it straight away even if i was feeling good about my prospects.