If you had a year left to live

[fayth2567]

Would you be happy that your life had a time limit? How would you spend it?

 

[locked*n*loaded]

If I only had a year remaining to live, I'd make damn sure I took myself out long before that time came in order to make sure I was still able to carry out my CTB.

 

[iiNico]

That sounds nice tbh. Might give me motivation to do something for once and I wouldn't need to find the courage to ctb

 

[outrider567]

Would you be happy that your life had a time limit? How would you spend it?

Probably eat more junk food and CTB sooner

 

[FieldsofLavender]

Well, I'd probably do what I've already been planning to do; visit my best friend across the world probably live with him for a little bit. I'd probably insist on using what money I have to help him buy the house he's always wanted, go out making someone else's life better the best I can, ehehe. I try to make him happy by living like he asks me to, so it only makes sense I'd wanna make him as happy as I can when I'm dying.

 

[TapeMachine]

I think that'd be very nice, having a definite end date, also knowing I'd no longer have to gamble with my ctb. I am naturally anxious, always worrying about worst case scenarios, always expecting things to go poorly.

So if I knew FOR SURE that I had a year left before I'd DEFINITELY DIE, maybe I'd finally be able to relax.

Lol, but who am I kidding? I'd still be an anxious mess, thinking stuff like, "oh no, what if this is just a trick, a prank??? What if I'm not really going to die by the end of the year?? Better make a backup plan.."

 

[sadDaysAhead]

The suffering is everlasting for me life is sad very sad depression has crumbled me I enjoy the idea of taking life into my own hands not life taking me I want to become one with life and not be trapped in this body I feel trapped everyday I wake up everyone disappoints including me one year won't change that .

 

[Euthanza]

I'm counting my days, there are several places I want to visit, I love travelling but haven't had chances to do it before, I'm getting to used to frugal living without owning things (car, home, biggies etc). Saving money for my final moment and I want to leave a lil bit for my partner and those who help me get along all of these times.

 

[DukeDestroyer]

I really don't know how I'd spend that year. I probably just live it like I do every year. Nothing fancy at all, just very boring to other people. I hate traveling with a strong passion, so traveling anywhere is out of the question. Even if it's a 45 minute drive anotheir city.

 

[foreverfalling]

A big part of my suffering is not knowing when I will die, and having to care about so many things as if I'll live forever to make sure I won't have to suffer more than I already am. Like maintaining my health, job, money, appearance. Knowing I'd have one year to live would be a huge burden lifted, so many things I don't have to worry about.

* spend my money freely instead of saving it all up for the future
* be more open to taking risks, knowing I'd be dead anyway
* be happier and relaxed because my future is no longer uncertain

 

[FuneralCry]

I believe that I would just be relieved knowing that there is an end date to all this and I would focus on trying to pass the time (hopefully by sleeping) until I'm finally free from this horrific world, and I would be comforted by the fact that I wouldn't have to research suicide methods. I also wouldn't feel so trapped here anymore knowing that I would only have to endure one more year here.

 

[fuzzy-clown]

This would be the ideal situation for me. The time limit will let me focus on doing a few last things to wrap up my existence here. I'm assuming that I wouldn't have the guilt associated with leaving the world by bus.

 

[Anon1337]

No. If I had terminal cancer or some supernatural force said I only had one year left I would not be happy. One thing I love about ctb is how much control it gives you over your death. I would never want to die by something out of my control.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I already have less than a year left because I decided it has to be that way. I really want to be able to do it in the fall season, but I just didn't feel ready yet last year. The only problem is that it still seems so far away and I don't know if I can realistically wait that long. If I do make it that far, I would really like to travel out of my state and go to a haunted house attraction in a place I've never been to just for the hell of it.

If I could do something like that and CTB a few days later, that would be awesome. I just don't know if it's worth trying to last that long or not.

 

[epic]

No, it would make me anxious .

 

[Darkover]

i can't do much with a brain injury i'd just spend most of my time in bed on the internet smoking weed and taking coke into my inevitable demise

 

[Tiny Little Tree]

I did live as if that were the case for a while, specifically that I would "go through with it" within the year. Don't so much now...

I just tried to enjoy the time spent with friends more. Splurged a bit on meals and a few other things but nothing too big or crazy. Did a lot of "time-wasting" things like play games.

 

[itsallpointless]

celebrate all day baby. go to prison, do whatever illegal stuff I've always wanted to do.(obviously without harming others)
probably take life less seriously and not be so concerned with others' opinions and not be so self conscious