Discussion If you had a painless method right now?

[fallingtopieces]

I would tidy what I could, write a note and then yes I would. I just don't see things changing for me.

 

[let.me.let.go87]

I'd write a goodbye letter to my husband and end it

 

[BlockHammer]

After gave all of my saving to my parents and also go to somewhere quiet so they don't have to found my corpse in my room. Then yea i ready to die using this insta kill methode

 

[mrelief82]

I would go asap :(

 

[.ᴍᴀʏᴜ.]

I wish I could but I can't. I have people who are dependent upon me for stability but once they're gone im sure I will.

 

[Randy Savage]

I would do it instantly. Not saying goodbyes or writing a note would help me relax and get rid of SI, I think.

 

[agony1996]

I wish I could but I can't. I have people who are dependent upon me for stability but once they're gone im sure I will.

I know how that feels I have mom and siblings who have given me so much love and just the thought of causing them immeasurable pain shatters my heart completely… you're not alone

 

[kyhoti]

I absolutely would. It's past time for me to be gone.

 

[SoulWhisperer]

If I had a fraction of a second to think about it I probably wouldn't (and couldn't) think about it, I'd go with it.

 

[sos]

sure, painless but is it also done quickly?

like imagine catching the bus; it'd be painless but you'd have to wait minutes or hours to die

then i'd rather have something painful and quickly

 

[AppleTreeDog]

I would be very very very tempted but know I need to stay alive for now to take care of my senior dog. He doesn't deserve the confusion and abandonment. I will live for him so he lives a happy life until he is gone. Then it will be my time to go.

 

[Lookingtoflyfree]

Yes, in an instant

Same. No regrets. An end to suffering? Absolutely.

 

[MisterOGBongWater]

At this moment? Yeah. Zero hesitation.

 

[agony1996]

I would be very very very tempted but know I need to stay alive for now to take care of my senior dog. He doesn't deserve the confusion and abandonment. I will live for him so he lives a happy life until he is gone. Then it will be my time to go.

I think that's so sweet and it's a real act of love. My dog passed away but when he was still alive, I had my first suicidal depression and I lived alone with him, I wanted to ctb so bad but then I'd look at him and think how scared he would be, the moment he realized he can't wake me up, and how he'd be alone in that state until someone would find me so I couldn't do it. I was his world and he was mine.
So I understand and admire you for thinking of him first, like I said cots a real bacteria of love.

 

[Fuko1]

Right now. Yesterday I talked to my father about my condition and that life has no meaning because you see how people are deteriorating. He told me that if you make the decision to CTB your family may suffer but after a few weeks it will go away and they continue with their lives. which relieves me. so I wish it were that simple CTB

 

[wobblycoatrack]

I would have a few years ago but I was dumb enough when I felt like things were going "well" to make a lot of ties with family, friends and now I have pets that rely on me too. So if I had the option I don't know if I could do it anymore. I would want to but I don't think I'd allow myself which is infuriating.

I'm the exact same :/, I'm an only child and I still live with my single parent mum while I go to uni, if it weren't for her I probably would but I can't leave her alone and I definitely can't let her be the one to find me.

 

[etherealspring]

yeah. and i wouldnt even think twice

 

[Dingusguy]

I'm the exact same :/, I'm an only child and I still live with my single parent mum while I go to uni, if it weren't for her I probably would but I can't leave her alone and I definitely can't let her be the one to find me.

Leaving family behind in such a manner can be hard yeah. I wouldn't want my mother to be the one to find me either, I can only imagine how terrible it must be to find your own child lifeless

 

[yxmux]

I remember having a dream where I was trying to hang myself, but SI kept preventing me from doing it. But then I found SN and was relieved with its convenience. I took the SN and woke up a few minutes later.

Yeah. I probably would.

 

[agony1996]

Leaving family behind in such a manner can be hard yeah. I wouldn't want my mother to be the one to find me either, I can only imagine how terrible it must be to find your own child lifeless

Yeah just the thought of my mother losing me and finding me shatters my heart I can't even think about it. It's heartbreaking

 

[eternalsunshine23]

If you would've asked me this yesterday 7 years ago exactly, I would've done it in a heart beat. But as I'm writing this, I have this lovely dog that I got 7 years ago today, that I can not EVER imagine leaving. Guilt builds in my heart for even feeling this way, knowing he'll spend the rest of his years wondering where I'm at. That's what is keeping me going. If I didn't have him, I would've CTB years ago. Somehow he keeps me going. I'm just in emotional anguish. My brain is filled with pain and agony. I want to end it, I do. But something stops me every single time. A small glimmer of hope stops me.

 

[Jon Arbuckle]

If you guys had a painless method to ctb in front of you right now, would you guys ctb right this second?

maybe tomorrow.

 

[Joarga]

Ahora mismo. Ayer hablé con mi padre sobre mi condición y que la vida no tiene sentido porque ves cómo la gente se va deteriorando. Me dijo que si tomas la decisión de hacer CTB tu familia puede sufrir pero después de unas semanas se les pasará y seguirán con sus vidas. Lo cual me alivia. Así que ojalá fuera así de simple CTB

Ojalá mi hermana fuese tan comprensiva como tu familia y pudiera hablar con ella
y reaccionara igual.