Discussion If you had a painless method right now?

[agony1996]

If you guys had a painless method to ctb in front of you right now, would you guys ctb right this second?

 

[hematomatema]

Maybe after I write out my note, tidy my room and get everything in order, but I'd definitely do it the same night/tonight. Hell right now I'm just waiting on some mulah so I can actually pull it off anyways

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Yes. If i had a method that is painless and guaranteed or at least 99.5% then i'd go for it this second.

I'd even take some pain for 20 minutes (not extreme pain ) , but some pain to get out of this hell as long as it's guaranteed Death, or at least 99.5% probability of Death

. I can't stand the extreme pain for even a few seconds . regular pain is horrible but i'd be willing to go through 20 minutes of it if i can get me out of this nightmare called life and into wonderful non-existence. 20 minutes of pain to avoid years of suffering and extreme torture of life ? yes. non-existence is worth it , non-existence forever is the ultimate bliss

to me there's nothing worth going through even a few seconds of the worst pain. i can't stand excruciating unbearable pain or extreme suffering. I don't care what they say. years of their supposed "good" things their "pleasurable" things is not worth going through even 1 minute of the worst pain imaginable much less the unimaginable which is out there, believe me. how about 6 hours straight constant unbearable pain . is that sandwhich or dumb clickbait youtube videos wort that ? how about for months of the worst constant pain?

 

[lita-lassi]

i have some cleaning up and writing to do but yeah

 

[Dingusguy]

I would have a few years ago but I was dumb enough when I felt like things were going "well" to make a lot of ties with family, friends and now I have pets that rely on me too. So if I had the option I don't know if I could do it anymore. I would want to but I don't think I'd allow myself which is infuriating.

 

[agony1996]

I would have a few years ago but I was dumb enough when I felt like things were going "well" to make a lot of ties with family, friends and now I have pets that rely on me too. So if I had the option I don't know if I could do it anymore. I would want to but I don't think I'd allow myself which is infuriating.

I completely relate to the pet situation.
I would have done the same for my dog,
he was my everything, he's passed now

 

[sserafim]

Depends on how effective/successful the method is. If I'm guaranteed to succeed, then I'd ctb. My ideal method would be something guaranteed (like assisted suicide)

 

[everythingblack]

Instantly. I wouldn't even be around to see what happens afterwards, so what's the point of setting up preparations

 

[Dingusguy]

I completely relate to the pet situation.
I would have done the same for my dog,
he was my everything, he's passed now

Dogs deserve the best we can give them. I lost the last of my two dogs about a year go and I miss them dearly. I still have a few pets that need me though so I still feel a strong need to keep caring for them, I couldn't CTB and leave them to wither away on their own like that. Pets are a blessing and a curse

 

[agony1996]

Dogs deserve the best we can give them. I lost the last of my two dogs about a year go and I miss them dearly. I still have a few pets that need me though so I still feel a strong need to keep caring for them, I couldn't CTB and leave them to wither away on their own like that. Pets are a blessing and a curse

100% my dog was not simply a dog to me be was a son. I miss him like crazy every single day and he passed 6 years ago.
If there an afterlife I'd want him to be waiting for me.

 

[Dingusguy]

100% my dog was not simply a dog to me be was a son. I miss him like crazy every single day and he passed 6 years ago.
If there an afterlife I'd want him to be waiting for me.

That almost got me to tear up a little, I feel the same about my dogs and in general other pets I miss. I don't know what happens when I go but I hope so dearly I see them again somewhere

 

[agony1996]

That almost got me to tear up a little, I feel the same about my dogs and in general other pets I miss. I don't know what happens when I go but I hope so dearly I see them again somewhere

Let's hope they greet us jumping up and down, that would be amazing…

 

[Dingusguy]

Let's hope they greet us jumping up and down, that would be amazing…

I couldn't agree more and I'll drink to that!

 

[heavyeyes]

Yes but not before writing a note

 

[BojackHorseman]

Oh I would want to .... so so much. I would think about it SO fucking hard. And honestly depending on my mood when it was presented I just might do it. But if I was sound of mind at the moment it was presented, no I could not do it. My husband and my puppies want me around too much to disappoint and hurt them like that. Now if my husband was to up and leave me and take the puppies with him, then hell yeah I'd do it in a heartbeat.

 

[Cress]

If you guys had a painless method to ctb in front of you right now, would you guys ctb right this second?

After some preparation probably. I already have access to SN but all of the testimony of how much suffering people go through from those that have watched people pass away from SN has been pretty discouraging. Death is pretty unpleasant obviously I just haven't been able to work myself up in a rut long enough to be able to pull it off. I need to be able to remain suicidal for at least a full 24 hours for SN to be effective as fasting as required and a decent amount of preparation.

I've only had the SN for a few weeks so I guess if I had it for much longer I'm probably would have already been gone by now I guess only time will tell.

 

[MikUma]

If you mean this second this second, I don't know. If you mean, if I had the chance to do it when I wanted to within the next few days, totally. I would have to clean my room, put postit notes with names of who I will give said object to, and leave letters on my table. Then I'd be so ready. I already have most of the stuff done, but I don't have a date

 

[Forever Sleep]

No, I feel stuck here till my Dad goes first. After that, maybe. I keep telling myself I'm going to do at as quickly as possible after he goes. I guess we never know till we're in the moment though.

 

[FuneralCry]

I know I'd be long gone if I had a way to free myself from this cruel, meaningless and torturous existence in an guaranteed, painless way. I only continue to be conscious and aware in this existence that only ever caused me to suffer as I lack the means to reliably free myself from it, to me existence is a burden that I never would have chosen.
All I wish for is eternal nothingness where all is finally erased and forgotten about, all that comforts me is the thought of an dreamless, eternal sleep. For me death is the only relief as it's the one escape from an existence so hellish and harmful with no limit as to how much one can suffer where one is destined for nothing but to decay, be tormented by old age and die anyway.

 

[agony1996]

Oh I would want to .... so so much. I would think about it SO fucking hard. And honestly depending on my mood when it was presented I just might do it. But if I was sound of mind at the moment it was presented, no I could not do it. My husband and my puppies want me around too much to disappoint and hurt them like that. Now if my husband was to up and leave me and take the puppies with him, then hell yeah I'd do it in a heartbeat.

I admire your courage to stick it out for your loved ones, im having the same dilemma with my mom. You have a good heart

 

[F6x]

Yeah if I could take it with me to a remote location, maybe a sea or a lake and make it look like an accident I probably would've been omw rn.

 

[agony1996]

No, I have to break the emotional connection with my family first.

same with me

 

[spentspirit]

I've been slowly peeling myself away from life. Most of my family cut themselves away from me; my parents are also pretty ambivalent (at least my mom is now). Dad won't ever be, but I don't think I can change that, and I won't easily be able to. He's disappointed me a lot in life anyway. He never made an effort to understand me, and I patterned so many shit behaviors after him.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Yes, I would. I would do it without any hesitation at all.

No, I have to break the emotional connection with my family first.

Is that even possible? Most humans are hardwired to care about their family members when they are found to be dead. I don't know why this is but them seeing a dead family member induces such a strong reaction. It'd be possible for you to not feel emotionally connected to them but I don't think that it's possible for them to not feel emotionally connected to you

 

[TiredOfAllThis]

Most likely I would, still someone has to care about my cats

 

[Sunset Limited]

I have already but my mother is still alive. I have to wait.

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

I'm going to kill myself. Overdosing on heroin. I needed help to get it. But I'm dying, unnaturally in a cruel chemically damaged state. I had too many severe health damages make it so I couldn't do anything but this. I was going to shoot myself but I've had too many severe neurological and cardiac episodes and now I can't even hold my hands steady. I am young. I can't believe I was chemically poisoned this way. I wanted to live. But I have to kill myself. There's no worse pain than what I've endured. There's no worse pain on Earth than chemical brain injuries. I wish you all well. I'm so sorry I made critical mistake. To end up this way. I cared about animals the planet and other people deeply. I didn't deserve this, and I did it to myself on accident. God help me.

 

[that_miqo'te]

Yeah rn, I have to wait because idk if my source will arrive by the time I'm meant to be away for a month so I'm waiting to order so I have to wait so long when I want to ctb rn
Yeah rn, I have to wait because idk if my source will arrive by the time I'm meant to be away for a month so I'm waiting to order so I have to wait so long when I want to ctb rn

 

[chicken-nugget]

If you guys had a painless method to ctb in front of you right now, would you guys ctb right this second?

Yes, in an instant

 

[WantThisToEnd]

After some preparation probably. I already have access to SN but all of the testimony of how much suffering people go through from those that have watched people pass away from SN has been pretty discouraging. Death is pretty unpleasant obviously I just haven't been able to work myself up in a rut long enough to be able to pull it off. I need to be able to remain suicidal for at least a full 24 hours for SN to be effective as fasting as required and a decent amount of preparation.

I've only had the SN for a few weeks so I guess if I had it for much longer I'm probably would have already been gone by now I guess only time will tell.

I'll take that SN off your hands if you want.

I'm going to kill myself. Overdosing on heroin. I needed help to get it. But I'm dying, unnaturally in a cruel chemically damaged state. I had too many severe health damages make it so I couldn't do anything but this. I was going to shoot myself but I've had too many severe neurological and cardiac episodes and now I can't even hold my hands steady. I am young. I can't believe I was chemically poisoned this way. I wanted to live. But I have to kill myself. There's no worse pain than what I've endured. There's no worse pain on Earth than chemical brain injuries. I wish you all well. I'm so sorry I made critical mistake. To end up this way. I cared about animals the planet and other people deeply. I didn't deserve this, and I did it to myself on accident. God help me.

This is against the rules, but I wish I could ask you to do it together. I don't have a gun or access to heroin unfortunately, so I'm a bit envious. Sorry you're in pain though. And I hope you find some other way to end the pain than killing yourself.