If you could time travel to a certain time spot in your life which one would you chose?

[noname223]

And no stopping your parents to procreate does not count. I would go back to the time when I was five. Explain my parents that their violent actions will destroy my life and make me very ill. If they would not stop I would probably flee from them even if it was a hard decision. I just think they would not stop that easily even if someone would explain the consequences of their actions.
I think any other time spot does not make real sense. I think I showed signs of mental illness when I was 6/7. I would be too late.
Maybe telling my 18 years old me that there is no future and give him some advices how to buy SN (to that time it must have been easy as fuck)

 

[FuneralCry]

I would go back in time to when I was a young teenager and with what I know now tell myself that things will only get worse and I would ctb then.

 

[PoofLoop:P]

I don't think I would go back at all, everything just feels like a blur

 

[Snake of Eden]

I thought about it alot. Actually more than I like. I realized even though the outcomes might be favourable if I can go back and change this or that decision but ultimately i think i will always reach to the same point of dread about my life and would want it to end sooner or later.

 

[Zzzzz]

Does the future count? 1 second before I die would be a good time for me.

 

[Largeletters]

My first thought was going back to age 10 and making sure my attempt succeeded, however, my father was still incarcerated at that time and I would never want to hurt him in that way. We have become close since he got out, so I hope that will make my death a bit easier on him, though I know logically it won't be easy. I don't want to hurt him, or leave him, but suicide is my only solution (Sorry for my rambling, lol). There's no hope or other way out for me. Maybe I'd go back to a much younger age and make sure he never became incarcerated in the first place. It destroyed his and my life forever, and things only got worse after that. Who knows how my life would be if that one thing never happened?

 

[Dear Agony]

2017, to be able to change things. There's no going back from what I've done to myself now.

 

[Foreversad]

As sperm .and not get out of my dad's whippie creepie

 

[AndromedaZ]

I would go back to when I was 15. I stopped my very abusive dad from killing my very abusive mom. I'd tell myself to just take a step back. It's not my responsibility to stop it. I thought I was doing the right thing, but just ended up horribly traumatized and with two abusive parents. I could have avoided some trauma (not all of it) by just staying out of it. Then I'd have had zero parents. One dead, one in prison. And one less awful memory to haunt me in my nightmares.

 

[clownangel]

Maybe 18-19. Prevent myself from ending up in the weird trafficking/culty shit I got dragged into (minimizing ptsd would at least make things suck 20% less) & spend more time with my ex goofing off before the whole having to be an adult thing set in. (Even if the end result was the same)

 

[logan]

3-5 years would be perfect ...

 

[Flippy]

Back to when I was 11. I would report something someone did and they would have been nixed from my life and the shit storm would never have started.

 

[plough22]

2014/2105, I'd head back to that time and advise myself of a vengeful ex. Stay with the current g/friend. Move away and get in with life. No it's stagnant, a life wasted, one I can't find energy but no bravery to end it yet.

 

[Pen>Sword]

With all the acquired knowledge and wisdom that is too late to be applied now, I'd travel back to 2009 when I was in grade 8. I was made fun of my accent and took it personally, rather than joke with it. At the time, my English skill wasn't very good, so I couldn't defend myself or make a joke or have a decent conversation. Even now, there are times when my peers couldn't understand what I'm saying. There are a lot of regrets I've made socially because of my limited English skill. This spiraled on that made me the main target. I was afraid to make friends. I was this cringey Catholic-communist-then-conservative phase with a hint of Protestantism fusion in me. As you can see, I'm socially awkward and cringey, and still am (no longer a communist, conservative, or self-professed Protestant though).

I wasn't very smart back then. I just looked like one. We only have a laptop in a family of seven. Khan Academy and other educational YouTube videos would've helped a lot. Even with a laptop, I'm still pretty dumb.

At university and college, I've made a dozen of terrible life choices. Some of these terrible mistakes are the reason why I'm suicidal right now. If only I'm not such an ass to people I dislike. If only I stood up for myself. If only I have stronger self-control. If only I'm wise and remained true to those principles. If only I'm smart and daring. I wouldn't be suicidal right now.

If there's a time machine that's reserved and operated for me, I'd go back. At least suicide wasn't an option. There are no good reason to die by suicide. I don't want to break my parents' and siblings' hearts. But since it doesn't exist, suicide is the best option for me.

 

[All Things Must Pass]

As sperm .and not get out of my dad's whippie creepie

Same. I said something like this to a similar question a while back.

 

[Foreversad]

Same. I said something like this to a similar question a while back.

Ugh ...sufferers understand the others

 

[Life_and_Death]

Where to start? Where to go?
Back to 16 and tell myself to not leave. To grin and bear it to help my brothers?
Back to 14 and tell myself to not get involved with the wrong guys? To avoid the birthday thing and other stuff.
Back to 15 to tell myself to wait a little and not act so hastily to break up with my ex? He didnt even have the chance to offer me a safe place away from 'home'.
Back to 16 so i can explain it to my (not then) husband so we could have had a better relationship?

Can i just have a time machine? Fuck the space time continuum, im changing shit lol

 

[Mr2005]

Do I even need to say?