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lotus11

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May 18, 2019
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If you could go back and start your life again, what would you tell your self? who would you be? what things specifically would you like to achieve?
 
not_a_robot

not_a_robot

"i hope the leaving is joyful, & never to return"
May 30, 2019
2,121
I would like to achieve killing myself sooner, before so many horrible experiences.
I would tell myself: never make the effort to try to connect or fit in with or seek comfort from others, because it is just a painful waste of time that will only create more problems.
 
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i_love_u

New Member
Jul 29, 2019
2
Absolutely, I could prevent any mistakes ive made
 
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Empty Smile

Empty Smile

The final Bell has rung. Goodbye to all.
Jul 13, 2018
1,785
I would go back and tell myself to do it right this fucking time and succeed at ctb.
 
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SinisterKid

SinisterKid

Visionary
Jun 1, 2019
2,113
Are you fucking kiddin me? You think I would really want to do this all again? Maybe the same question 30 yrs ago would have got a different answer, but not at my age.
 
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Kikoo Loool

Kikoo Loool

Enlightened
Feb 25, 2019
1,128
Don't waste time being a good pupil and student, don't marry and kill yourself sooner.
 
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Nihil

Nihil

Student
Mar 4, 2019
111
Be born a biological girl. Don't know if life would be perfect as a result, but you'll save yourself a lot of mental torture by not being the wrong gender. Of course, you can't help how you're born, but still...dysphoria is one hell of a living nightmare I wouldn't wish on anyone.
 
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Icarus

Icarus

Member
Jul 25, 2019
76
Follow your heart, dont be so defensive, have no fear.
 
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Laststop

Laststop

Experienced
Jul 9, 2019
243
This has been a fantasy of mine for so long. I have day dreamed hours and hours about it. I have two scenarios. One is if I could go back and have a whole new life, like new family, new looks, and so on. A better life. But still retain my memory from when I left now to go back, so I could savor it. Or the other is just jumping back into my body back at a certain date I have in mind, knowing everything also. I wonder if I could do it differently, or if I would still be a miserable failure?
 
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Nem

Nem

Drs suck mega ass!
Sep 3, 2018
1,489
Actually, I would've just broken up with my ex at the first sign of red flags...I wouldn't really change anything else.
Hugs/Peace!
 
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Pistolero114

Pistolero114

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Jun 25, 2019
261
Unfortunately I would not change anything with the exception of removing the pain I caused some wonderful people because of 32 years of active alcoholism. Interesting side note; I have today 2087 days clean and sober.

Changing anything would require removing some absolutely precious people from my otherwise f**ked up life. Babies are precious. Baby girls are a gift from my higher power.

In two words; I would not.
Unfortunately I would not change anything with the exception of removing the pain I caused some wonderful people because of 32 years of active alcoholism. Interesting side note; I have today 2087 days clean and sober.

Changing anything would require removing some absolutely precious people from my otherwise f**ked up life. Babies are precious. Baby girls are a gift from my higher power.

In three words; I would not.
 
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blanketyblk

blanketyblk

Mage
Jun 9, 2019
574
i would of spent more time caring about myself than caring about what other people think of me. i also wouldn't devote my life to helping other people at the expense of my own wellbeing.
 
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seekingoblivion

seekingoblivion

Arcanist
Dec 11, 2018
454
I would tell myself to die asap. I'm not cut out for life. It's in my bones.
 
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Shamana

Warlock
May 31, 2019
716
Cut out all unhealthy habits. Be more daring in what oppourtunites I had. Get as much sex and romance as possible.
 
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a_strange_day

Arcanist
Jul 16, 2019
461
what I'd try to do is not make the same endless mistakes again, even if I it's hard to believe given what I am
what I would do for sure is not hurt others

and finally I'd like to die young, that would be a blessing
 
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k75

k75

L'appel du Vide
Jun 27, 2019
2,548
If I could just have a complete redo but keep my memories so I could just kind of edit a few key things, I'd probably take it.

As much as I might be tempted, I would not change much of the first half of my life. I wouldn't want to not know my best friend, for example. But certain things haunt me, and I think I could do them better.

The last eight years or so, though... I'd tear that shit to shreads.
 
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Painted Bird

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Jul 15, 2019
125
I have made so many bad decisions and mistakes in my life that sometimes I'm amazed that my life is not much, much more messed up as a result than it actually is. So I'd tell myself to avoid all those situations but I think I'd still end up depressed and suicidal as feeling like this now is more of a worldview/philosophical thing for me than a mental health condition.
 
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