If possible, I would invent a time travel machine and go back in time and make it so I didn't have to go through all the trauma that I have been through. I would also back in time and make it so others did not have to endure the trauma they did either. Also with my time travel machine, I would make it so people who have traumatized me & have destroyed my life never existed, bad stuff in the world never happened (the constant shooting everywhere and stuff), and so certain words didn't exist like "strong" and "resilient" because I just hate hate hate being told I am "strong" and "resilient" just because I have been through a lot and I feel like I am the opposite- weak, powerless, helpless, and vulnerable!!!! I guess if it was possible to invent a time travel machine and go back in time and give myself a completely different life that people would not be saying I am "strong" or "resilient" because I wouldn't be enduring all this trauma!!
I guess maybe being a librarian or something (though, I cannot become one since my university doesn't offer the courses that are required for it). To be honest, I don't have any real aspirations in life.
A librarian would be a good job. I love reading and libraries.
That sucks that your university does not offer the courses required to become a librarian.
And I feel you...about not having any real aspirations in life. I don't really live. I just "survive" every day and am looking forward to death!!