Discussion If you could go back to your younger self, would you want them to ctb to help yourself now?

[foreverlanguish]

Probably not. While a lot of pain and suffering would've been prevented, if I killed myself young, I would never have truly learnt that what I did was wrong, and so many of the things I learnt now would never have happened. It's better now that I kill myself with my current knowledge and mindset than if I killed myself when I was younger and had barely, although the thought is nice to think about.

 

[LostLily]

I wish that I had the strength to cut my wrist when I was in that bath tube

 

[phantomime]

yes, yes, yes, yes. at least try something with a higher success chance because my attempts as a kid ended at most in being in the hospital and then beaten when back home. i shouldn't have accepted help when i ran away from home. should have starved and died on the streets. it wouldn't have gotten worse. i wouldn't be in more pain.

 

[Nadir]

No cuz I'm gonna ctb soon, so I didn't need to do it earlier. It's all nonsense anyway.

 

[Phasmid]

Unfortunately, yeah.

I grew up in a country where I had easier access to guns so if my younger self knew what he'd have to go through when he's older he'd have a much easier way of leaving the world compared to now.

 

[WhatDoesTheFoxSay?]

Yes, I want badly to sentence her to death.

And I would gladly violate the Geneva Convention to punish her, all for her sin of LOVING MY BITCH OF A MOTHER.

 

[fkyou]

I should have done it 5 years ago. Peoples false toxic postivity hope kept me going . It gets better with time was a lie

Don't these people realize the emotional pain they cause when they stop" unintentionally"off course they don't know the person is contemplating suicide" the person from suicide. They were never in a position where their life got disturbed in anyway -they don't understand the terror of things slipping out their hands.

 

[banger12]

This is a really fucking hard one for several reasons.

 

[Ashes of a Dreamer]

Yes, I wish I'd've killed myself at 18; but doing it now, on my 30's, is a matture decision, no one can say that I didn't try make things better :)

 

[ihatemylife]

Yes, I wish I had done it when I was 4 years old, before I had ever experienced all of the hellishness of this life.

 

[Rabbit-]

Definitely. My being born in the first place was a sin that can only be fixed on death, so the earlier the better. I wouldn't just be saving myself, though that is a plus- It'd be for the best for everyone and the world.

That said, given the opportunity I'd likely try to encourage or grant him a gentler method to use, like N/SN. I hate all of myself deeply, and that applies to even the youngest version of me, but he's only a child and it isn't his fault he was cursed to exist in this way. So as much as I deserve to hurt and rot, if I were face-to-face with a past self I'd probably show him an undue mercy and spare him from something truly miserable.

 

[Johnzaga23]

I would try to advice him to not make the same mistakes

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

If I'd gone sooner, I would've missed out on both the best and worst time of my life. This time is the same time that brought me where I am today.

 

[S like suicide]

Absolutly yes!
GOD i had 3 GOLDEN opportunities in the past years to ctb,everything was absolutely perfect and I chose not to.
for giving myself another chance and those were the biggest mistakes and the biggest regrets i have in my life.

 

[human909]

Most likely, I don't think there is ever chance i will feel happy again. I just want to end my life and get it over with.

 

[melonpan]

Yes, I don't even know if I should carry on living now because I waste my parents money being a fucking lazy ass slob, but it might be a waste of their money if I go and die considering they put so much effort on me
I wish I could've died at birth

 

[Johnzaga23]

For those who say yes, what exactly is stopping you from doing it now? Don't you have the means to do it? Are you in suicide watch or smth? If not, then what stops you?

 

[JesiBel]

Well, I had suicidal intentions since I was a teenager (when all my personal/mental problems started) But I didn't have the information I have now, maybe if I had been "well prepared" at the time I would have done it without hesitation. At that stage of life I was much more impulsive than I am now.

For those who say yes, what exactly is stopping you from doing it now? Don't you have the means to do it? Are you in suicide watch or smth? If not, then what stops you?

Responsibilities, most of my family is elderly, my mother is hospitalized in the terminal phase of her illness. Only my sister would be left to take care of everything. Guilt runs through me, I want to leave this world, the only thing left for me to do is be "selfish" or continue suffering in silence.

 

[Caleb82]

I would CTB to save my kids the misfortune of having me as a father. I am too late.

 

[foreverstardust]

My first attempt was when I was 15 and I think it would have hurt my aunt less, funnily enough. We only really became close over the last few years and now it will be more painful for her. If I could pinpoint an age, 22/23 was when it started to get worse for me. I wish I could go back and peace out back then.

 

[roundforest]

Its an odd question, but I see so many people- including myself- wishing they either ctb'ed earlier or at a certain moment to spare themselves from their current self. What do you all think? Would you do it? When would you want to?

My youngest self was livable. It was certain events as an adult that lead me here

 

[areyousafe??]

Absolutely, I should have ctb'ed when I was 17. Life has been empty since then.

 

[CallmeWill4719]

Its an odd question, but I see so many people- including myself- wishing they either ctb'ed earlier or at a certain moment to spare themselves from their current self. What do you all think? Would you do it? When would you want to?

I have a hard time answering it. I met a very wonderful guy and hoping he's my husband but other than that not really satisfied with still being here. Proud to say he's actually very healthy for me

 

[onmywaytothebusstop]

Its an odd question, but I see so many people- including myself- wishing they either ctb'ed earlier or at a certain moment to spare themselves from their current self. What do you all think? Would you do it? When would you want to?

Yes!

Preferably when i was 0 years old.

 

[~GeminiVII~]

ive had two attempts in the past. one failed to being too afraid i guess. the other due to being caught.

yes i have had ups and downs since, but life has progressively gone downhill the past 3 years. i definitely wish the failed attempts worked.

what hurts most is i now have two little nieces who adore me. the more life goes on, the more people will get hurt when im gone.