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brokeandbroken
Enlightened
- Apr 18, 2023
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No. While I have made bad decisions. I don't think I was ever destined for success. To be honest I think I overperformed what society had wanted for me. Graduating high school, graduating university, medical school.... Society doesn't want that for nerdy white males. Clearly. I've been treated like utter shit thrown into the streets. Left to rot. Because I had the misfortune of being a victims of crime(s)... They prefer us to be homeless and miserable. To kill ourselves in the shadows of the night so they don't even have to be aware of our presence. So no. I don't think my life would change in anyway if I went back and tried to change things. Prisoners and felons committing some of the most despicable crimes are treated better then me. I think it would change for the worse. By worse I mean my current fate but sooner. Simply put society wishes I was dead they just don't want to know about it.I've been thinking about this question a lot in recent times. I've had a lot of things go wrong recently, and this question just keeps popping up. I know I will never be able to, of course. Because it's not possible. But if I just had that chance to go back. Start over and do every single thing different. From the second I was able to make choices for myself, I'd take it in a heartbeat. Just being able to avoid every fucked up decision I've made throughout my life, I think it'd make me feel a lot "happier". Of course, I'd still suffer, as that's just what life is. But I guess that temporary fleeting feeling of it.. It'd make me feel something.