AnonymousRobin
little bird fly away
- Oct 7, 2022
- 193
For me id like to go diving in the deep ocean and be around all of the sea creatures and amazing sites. when i lived in japan I went swimming at the beaches and it was always very nice
Have a good drink and smoke sat chatting shit with my.now ex, she was my glue and isn't there now for me.
Darkover
Angelic
- Jul 29, 2021
- 4,435
have sex with someone who really wants too
stilhavinightmares
Warlock
- Oct 13, 2022
- 726
Win the lottery so my family and friends can live without financial stress and have fulfilling experiences when I'm gone.
krxbs
a bleeding heart </3
- Jan 24, 2023
- 71
this has been a reoccurring daydream for me since i was ~14 so i know my answer: i'd love to have a short one-on-one with everyone i love before i died. but realistically, i wouldn't be able to do that, for their sake and mine. i don't know if i'd be able to go through with it if i had to look my loved ones in the eye and tell them my bus is here... lol ^^'
i guess, less tragically, i would like to release a really good song that i'm satisfied with. that would be a great thing to leave behind.
i guess, less tragically, i would like to release a really good song that i'm satisfied with. that would be a great thing to leave behind.
Make sure everyone in the whole world knows the story of my life, so they can understand what was going on with me, and expose the people who damaged my life the most.
Kurushii
Student
- Jan 14, 2023
- 137
I don't think there's much I want to do in general. But if my bus was ready I would give my partner all the money I have and give him a long kiss. He's the best person I've ever known and I want him to lead a happy and fulfilling life. But if he doesn't want to live, that's okay too. Writing a letter to the government advocating for the right to die might be nice too.
Sorry, I sort of listed 3 things.. If I had to just do one, I would give my partner a kiss.
Sorry, I sort of listed 3 things.. If I had to just do one, I would give my partner a kiss.
try new drugs and add them to my mix
The whole month before ctb I will eat a lot of food. lol I don't have to care about gaining weight anymore.
AnonymousRobin
little bird fly away
- Oct 7, 2022
- 193
im sorry
i wish i could too, make it easier for my family but i dont gamble so have no chance :(
i wish i could just tell everyone how much i care about them and it is not because of them without them worrying and being scared/trying to stop me. realising music would be a lovely thing :) do you play any instruments or sing? you seem very nice, i saw you in the chat with people being very polite
as many as you like :) its a nice thought and very telling you just want the best for someone else
i want to try at least some low level drugs before i go as i have never done anything like that i want to try acid and mushrooms but probably never will :(
that would be amazing
i dont eat much but to be able to without fear is amazing idea
krxbs
a bleeding heart </3
- Jan 24, 2023
- 71
yeah, i can really relate to that... although maybe part of me would want someone there to try and stop me, i don't know. thank you for the compliment, you also seem very sweet! i appreciate that you took the time to reply to people.i wish i could just tell everyone how much i care about them and it is not because of them without them worrying and being scared/trying to stop me. realising music would be a lovely thing :) do you play any instruments or sing? you seem very nice, i saw you in the chat with people being very polite
i only sing and rap at the moment. i don't play any instruments yet... by the time i found my passion in music a few years ago, i was already too depressed to have the energy to learn an instrument. now i'm a broke university student so it's hard to find the time & energy to work on music, but if i don't ctb soon i'm planning on getting a part time gig and using the money to buy a digital piano & a guitar. fingers crossed!
i hope you accomplish your own goals. i've never gone diving but it sounds beautiful. :)
Judah
Enlightened
- Oct 1, 2020
- 1,541
violetchiwawa
ruff ruff grr
- Jan 23, 2023
- 37
Honestly, id try anything
Off the top of my head though: fentanyl benzos,aderall,cocaine, methamphetamine mushrooms, lsd, mdma,ketamine, mby 5meo-dmt(that one is scary), id also try going higher on my dxm doses.
If i had to choose one, id instead go for a fentanyl overdose(preferably 2nd dose administered in the middle of the high)
Ive already tried some weird drug mixes like stimulants+opioids+alcohol+weed+benadryl so not too sure what i have left to try
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hellispink
poisonous
- May 26, 2022
- 1,231
Travel. I would like to travel different countries before I had to go. But that seems very impossible.
Discuss hypotethicals and politics with my favourite ex like we always used to do and then have sex with him.
Find a way to make everyone I've ever known forget I exist, so I can go in peace without hurting those I love and care for.
disabledlife
Specialist
- Jun 5, 2020
- 389
Me too, see all messages I posted in this forum to understand.
I would like to tidy up my house so my loved ones don't have to worry too much after my death, but it's extremely hard on my health, and traveling around the world is the only compensation for my shitty life.
What I am going to tell you will undoubtedly remain in the dream state, that these projects have little chance of materializing. There will always be people who will want to oppose it, to the chagrin of children and people who will be born and then regret their births afterwards, for example because of their lives.
I would like my life story to go around the world, via the press, this forum, the internet, my life must serve as an example of what not to do, be an example of the fact that I would not have had to be born!
I would like international laws for a license to procreate, a license to be a parent, to prevent bad parents from having children, to prevent the transmission of handicaps, suffering...
Of course nature will take care of ensuring that there will always be sick people, disabled people to be born, if this is undetectable before procreation for example, but everything that is detectable must be detected and avoided. For the good of the child, personally I would have preferred not to be born.
I would like international laws on the protection of children, against bullying at school, guarantees of education, guarantees of food, guarantees of care, guarantees of income for children, guarantees of total equality between each child (no poor children, no rich children, no growth retardation, no deficiencies, that everyone has the same chances of succeeding in life, their professional careers, their diplomas, schools, free universities everywhere, free sport everywhere) ... It would take a direct universal democracy, the people in power, everyone equally in power, it may be the only way for these laws to exist.
I would like international laws for a right to assisted suicide, peaceful, for everyone who asks for it, whatever the reasons, provided that they are determined, aware of their request, a right to euthanasia for all people who cannot commit suicide but want to die (sick people, severely disabled people, for example). Doctors may or may not perform euthanasia, but doctors who want to help someone die will never be prosecuted (unlike pro-lifers who want doctors who are pro-choice condemned).
You should know that the mentally ill also have consciences, so are perfectly capable of deciding their end of life as they have the right to vote in countries that really respect human rights!
Of course everyone will have the right to change their mind at any time, and it will always be necessary to try to convince, but not to force, people to live, and to give them all the help and necessary compensation, to these people, who will require it to live.
I would like international laws to protect LGBT people!
I would not want to leave children on an increasingly degraded planet (climate, pollution, wasted resources, waste everywhere, rising seas, climate refugees, mass migrations with tensions because of inequality... ).
dw33ter
meow meow
- Jan 23, 2023
- 36
Brokensaddle
Student
- Sep 28, 2020
- 180
Have a warm hearty meal. I barely eat anything warm because my life is so shit. A good warm meal and place to rest and be cozy during my time of ctb is all I would all ask for.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 37,199
I just want to be gone, that is all. I simply don't wish to experience anything, as the very nature of existence is something that I despise. Having the ability to be conscious and aware of this world is both a burden and a curse, and even one second spent here is one second too long for me.
Get my passport and meet friends I've only talked to online. Go back to Vegas. And finally, visit the grand canyon where I might be able to meet my bus
yufei
Member
- Jan 19, 2023
- 29
Gniook
Member
- Jul 31, 2022
- 7
Huntfish34
Enlightened
- Mar 13, 2020
- 1,622
Go to a rave on some Clean ass fckn Lsd and Molly, where I'd just absolutely melt into the ground and become one with the universe. No more hatred, resentments, anxiety or bullshit..... Just Pure unadulterated love and understanding.
Forest Fire
Student
- Jul 19, 2019
- 118
I would like to have a house party like the ones i used to go to when i was at school. But it would be with anybody i've met in my life who i got on with and not just the people i got on with when i was a kid. Everyone getting drunk/stoned and getting rowdy, singing along to songs etc and i would like to sleep with the only person whoever loved me one last time.
Surfsup
Cowabunga
- Feb 1, 2023
- 14
Surf. Go to the beach in general, but I love surfing. I've never done it, I can't even swim. But I've had a love for the ocean for so long. My plan was actually to retire and live off the grid on a beach or secluded island. I doubt I'll get there but I'm still hopeful. Water is beautiful
