Yes i would do it now , if it was guaranteed to kill me
the only thing holding me back for now is fear of failing a suicide attempt and remaining alive but with more brain damage or other damage.
this is one reason they made all guaranteed methods of suicide into crimes to keep me in the prison. like they made me hiring someone to shoot me 10 times in the head a crime. yeah i have a rifle and shotgun but i know even ammunition can fail and the powder only partly burn leaving you alive. yes it's a low probability but still not guaranteed . someone else can take more than 1 shot i only get one and could be unconscious but still alive with brain damage if only part of the powder or only the primer burns . so it's a billion times more guaranteed more reliable someone else shooting me. why is this a crime ? it's voluntary i want someone to shoot me . i want to shoot myself but fear failing. i want to die i need to die but i can't pay someone to shoot me in the head . but i can't hire someone to shoot me assist me with my suicide get me out of suffering because they made that a crime. here in the U.S. a lot of people with guns could do it if i was paying money.
i would press the button on myself today. with a guaranteed method of suicide i can surpass every human alive all the 8 billion alive i can surpass them all by ceasing to exist. if i kill myself today then tomorow i won't exist. since i don't exist i can't suffer nor feel pain , no problems no bad memories . don't have to work. i will be invulnerable . every single 1 of the 8 billion alive will suffer and under threat of something very horrible happening to them. i don't exist so i can't suffer extremely . every human alive all 8 billion can suffer extremely can and will suffer will encounter problems pain disapointment worry stress diseases etc. i won't so i will be in a better state non-existence forever . eternal non-existence is thus the only perfection the ultimate state. every single 1 of the 8 billion will have to get up and shower , eat or suffer the pain of hunger , work for food shelter other needs, have to constantly eat wash clean everything , ..... i won't have to do any of that fuckin shit ever ... permanent non-existence is the best thing by a trillion times
Yes if it was guaranteed to kill these monstrous cells they call a human body i'm imprisoned in, the same cells that are in the other non-human animals.