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fisbp

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Because of my depression, I can't do anything properly.
I tried to fix my depression for years but still nothing has worked, and now my life is way behind others.
If I can't fix my depression, and I am in a painful state, would CTB be the ideal solution?
 
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jimmy7754

jimmy7754

I just want to be myself again
Dec 15, 2021
508
Idk anymore I can't fix my state either.. it's unbearable and lonely..
 
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Cathy Ames

Cathy Ames

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Mar 11, 2022
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Hi! See, at your age it is completely possibly for you to catch up with and even surpass what your peers are doing (at least in some ways). Tell me what all you have done while you were trying to fix your depression.
 
its-about-time

its-about-time

nope
Mar 19, 2022
807
If your depression can't be fixed you change your expectations of life and embrace the suckiness
 
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fisbp

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Tell me what all you have done while you were trying to fix your depression.
I tried having fun by listening to music and watching youtube. It's the only thing I can do properly.
I tried creating a routine for an efficient lifestyle but that didn't work.
I took a break for months but that didn't help.
I kept my environment tidy but that didn't help.
I dropped out of high school but that didn't work either.
I had deep thoughts about myself but I wasn't able to find a solution.
 
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Al Cappella

Al Cappella

Are we there yet?
Feb 2, 2022
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For many, depression is not a leaky faucet, it doesn't get fixed. The approach is to manage it, which can be done. And all that aside, no one here knows what the mental health medical landscape will look like in 20, 30 years.
 
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Cathy Ames

Cathy Ames

Cautionary Tale
Mar 11, 2022
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I tried having fun by listening to music and watching youtube. It's the only thing I can do properly.
I tried creating a routine for an efficient lifestyle but that didn't work.
I took a break for months but that didn't help.
I kept my environment tidy but that didn't help.
I dropped out of high school but that didn't work either.
I had deep thoughts about myself but I wasn't able to find a solution.
So... it sounds to me like you might benefit from outside help of some sort. I don't see medication or therapy on this list. Things like study groups or academic "coaching" or test preparation classes can help with the studying issue. Just some quick suggestions as a starting point.
 
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fisbp

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So... it sounds to me like you might benefit from outside help of some sort. I don't see medication or therapy on this list. Things like study groups or academic "coaching" or test preparation classes can help with the studying issue. Just some quick suggestions as a starting point.
Ive been getting therapy and medication since months ago but it does not work for me.
And I cannot afford test prep classes since they are expensive in my country.
 
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Glowarm

F*ck everyone and everything
Apr 8, 2022
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Because of my depression, I can't do anything properly.
I tried to fix my depression for years but still nothing has worked, and now my life is way behind others.
If I can't fix my depression, and I am in a painful state, would CTB be the ideal solution?
You are the only person who can ever decide if ctb is right for you. That is, in my opinion, a very deeply personal question for only oneself to answer.
Also, as Cathy stayed above there are some more methods to cope with depression. I know more than a few people that use therapy and/or medication to cope with their depression.
 
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Cathy Ames

Cathy Ames

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Mar 11, 2022
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Ive been getting therapy and medication since months ago but it does not work for me.
That's too short of a time frame to give up on it yet. There are a lot of different medications (and combinations of medications). Unfortunately, it can take a while to find one that works. And the same thing goes for therapists... perhaps to an even greater extent. Even with a good therapist, for serious problems like yours, it commonly takes longer than just a few months. But there are a lot of therapists out there who are not that good at it or sometimes it is not a good fit, and you need someone different. I'm sorry. I know you want to feel better ASAP, but it doesn't work that way for very many people.
 
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Al Cappella

Al Cappella

Are we there yet?
Feb 2, 2022
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That's too short of a time frame to give up on it yet. There are a lot of different medications (and combinations of medications). Unfortunately, it can take a while to find one that works. And the same thing goes for therapists... perhaps to an even greater extent. Even with a good therapist, for serious problems like yours, it commonly takes longer than just a few months. But there are a lot of therapists out there who are not that good at it or sometimes it is not a good fit, and you need someone different. I'm sorry. I know you want to feel better ASAP, but it doesn't work that way for very many people.
Absolutely true. And I don't want to call anyone grasshopper, lest I get old fogie back, but it can take years to reach a manageable solution. This will not be sorted in a few months, unfortunately.
 
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Cathy Ames

Cathy Ames

Cautionary Tale
Mar 11, 2022
2,109
Absolutely true. And I don't want to call anyone grasshopper, lest I get old fogie back, but it can take years to reach a manageable solution. This will not be sorted in a few months, unfortunately.
And I did not say that lightly. I KNOW it is a big deal if it ends up taking years! That said, from what I read, the majority of people that need it DO find something that works, and if the prescriber is a good one, for these people something is found within the first 1-3 that are tried. Playing the odds, @fisbp, it is VERY likely that you're in the group who will find something that works. That's why I recommend you, *as an 18-year-old*, continue trying with the outside help for longer than a few months.

Besides that, I wish you would not give up on yourself just in general. You have a lot going on and that is obscuring your true capabilities. Plus you have not yet learned the life (or study) skills and habits that would help you. New behaviors CAN be learned. If you cannot get a coach or take test preparation classes, you can seek out materials on your own that will break it down for you into small steps that you can do. But in your shoes, I would ask the therapist for some direction in this area. If they will not help you themselves (and they might) then they will certainly be able to find you a good resource (as in a book or something online). Very many people need this kind of help. You're not alone. If you learn this stuff now, it will help you a lot as you go through life as an adult.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,614
Only you know what you should do, as it is your life and your decision after all. Only you know your situation after all, and we all have different limits as to what we can cope with. I'm sorry that you suffer so unbearably. I know that it is hard to carry on when you are so exhausted. I hope that you find relief from your suffering in whatever happens.
 
Mr.4x

Mr.4x

Money Can't Stop A Suicidal Weakness
Feb 28, 2022
29
I tried having fun by listening to music and watching youtube. It's the only thing I can do properly.
I tried creating a routine for an efficient lifestyle but that didn't work.
I took a break for months but that didn't help.
I kept my environment tidy but that didn't help.
I dropped out of high school but that didn't work either.
I had deep thoughts about myself but I wasn't able to find a solution.
Try NoFap and Zoloft
 
WorthlessTrash

WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
2,429
Therapy, anti-depressants, learn to cope. These options if you're determined to live.
 

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