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Be rude to me at all times, I don't deserve kindne
- Jun 27, 2022
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I'd go 20 days doing meditation, going to university, sauna, long walks (can't work out cuz I'm disabled) and all of the sudden I'll be like:
"I deserve a vacation from this healthy lifestyle, imma go back to being fucked up for a while"
And then I just lay in bed, fail exams, find excuses to stay home and watch YouTube, AND ROT. I love and hate the rot. Idk why
Paying attention to recovery is tiring. Trying is hard.
I have to manage my disability and can't get over how unfair this is. I can't, I think I was pampered too much when I was healthy.
"I deserve a vacation from this healthy lifestyle, imma go back to being fucked up for a while"
And then I just lay in bed, fail exams, find excuses to stay home and watch YouTube, AND ROT. I love and hate the rot. Idk why

Paying attention to recovery is tiring. Trying is hard.
I have to manage my disability and can't get over how unfair this is. I can't, I think I was pampered too much when I was healthy.