If it weren’t for the depression, would you wanna live?

[ve.nin]

& can you separate it from yourself?

 

[Dead Ghost]

The depression would be motivated by the fact that I have been banned from the job market, my difficulties in establishing relationships with other people (how old you get is very important in the face of the difficulties you have in fending for yourself) and that I don't know how deal with health problems that are irrelevant to other people.

I don't have a social fabric to help me deal with my problems, nor am I capable of creating one, nor do I have economic sufficiency. Depression is just a consequence of the disaster that is my life, it has nothing to do with wanting to live or not.

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La depressió la motivaría en que tinc vetat el mercat de treball, les meves dificultats per establir relacions amb altres persones (quant arribes a certa edat és molt important davant de les dificultats que tens per valdre't per tu mateix) i que no se com fer front a problemes de salut que per altres persones són irrellevants.

No tinc un teixit social que m'ajudi a fer front als meus problemes ni sóc capaç de crear-lo, ni tinc suficiéncia económica. La depressió és només una conseqüéncia del desastre que és la meva vida, no te relació amb voler viure o no.

 

[ve.nin]

The depression would be motivated by the fact that I have been banned from the job market, my difficulties in establishing relationships with other people (how old you get is very important in the face of the difficulties you have in fending for yourself) and that I don't know how deal with health problems that are irrelevant to other people.

I don't have a social fabric to help me deal with my problems, nor am I capable of creating one, nor do I have economic sufficiency. Depression is just a consequence of the disaster that is my life, it has nothing to do with wanting to live or not.

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La depressió la motivaría en que tinc vetat el mercat de treball, les meves dificultats per establir relacions amb altres persones (quant arribes a certa edat és molt important davant de les dificultats que tens per valdre't per tu mateix) i que no se com fer front a problemes de salut que per altres persones són irrellevants.

No tinc un teixit social que m'ajudi a fer front als meus problemes ni sóc capaç de crear-lo, ni tinc suficiéncia económica. La depressió és només una conseqüéncia del desastre que és la meva vida, no te relació amb voler viure o no.

I hear you I'm really sorry the situation is that bad

 

[piddincir]

hey man, whilst it's good too see you I read your previous post and sorry you're plans didn't work out. Hopefully you find peace soon man. My own plans last night didn't work out either

I know freedom from depression would have released my wife from her struggles and probably saved her life, sadly not the case.

My depression losing her is just too much, people say it will get better with time. Some tell me it won't but you'll learn to live with it, but I know that's just not something I will ever be able to live with

Wishing you peace bro

 

[Orbitc]

I don't know what life is without depression - my life has been crap since childhood. It would be cool if you could just abstract, but I can't. Although I don't think that my depression is some kind of special parallax on life, because no matter how you look at shit, it remains crap. I can only hypothetically assume that other people's lives are very different from mine and they can be happy. My whole life is crap and my depression is an adequate reaction to this.

 

[WAITING TO DIE]

I doubt it because even if my depression was cured, I would still be suffering from a deep existential crisis.
Even during the rare times that I was depression free, I still saw life as pointless and meaningless.

 

[NocturnILL]

I'd like to think so but idk that still doesn't change all the other factors of this world that I'd have to be living with…society being one of the main

 

[loser098]

Can't separate it. My appearance is my depression and my depression is my appearance.

I'd have to drastically alter my form or cease existing to solve this.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Not really. I'm depressed because of the issues that I go through. Without depression, I'd still be going through the same issues but without depression. I'd just conclude that I don't want to live but this time I just won't be depressed when making that conclusion

 

[LeperGnome]

I'm not staying around to be drafted for the upcoming wars over depleting resources...

 

[Kit1]

I do want to die - because of my past, having to relive that past every day in the form of flashbacks and nightmares and for my constant struggle to have to appear to be "normal" (like now sitting here waiting for guests to arrive and not really wanting to socialise).., I also have complex PTSD, CFS, possibly autistic according to my therapist amongst a number of other challenges.

However my reality is that I need to try and keep myself alive for the sake of my children. With the right support, I believe that I had a chance of keeping myself alive even when I became suicidal. However now that I have no support, I cannot see a life beyond one day ending my life and unfortunately it will be too late to even stop myself and I don't know when that day will be till it has happened.

 

[WAITING TO DIE]

I do want to die - because of my past, having to relive that past every day in the form of flashbacks and nightmares and for my constant struggle to have to appear to be "normal" (like now sitting here waiting for guests to arrive and not really wanting to socialise).., I also have complex PTSD, CFS, possibly autistic according to my therapist amongst a number of other challenges.

However my reality is that I need to try and keep myself alive for the sake of my children. With the right support, I believe that I had a chance of keeping myself alive even when I became suicidal. However now that I have no support, I cannot see a life beyond one day ending my life and unfortunately it will be too late to even stop myself and I don't know when that day will be till it has happened.

I have ptsd from childhood abuse and I suffer from aspergers.
Trying to appear normal is exhausting.
I'm sorry you are going through similar things.

 

[Orbitc]

Can't separate it. My appearance is my depression and my depression is my appearance.

I'd have to drastically alter my form or cease existing to solve this.

What is your problem? If we are talking about excess weight, then I can give you some effective advice.

 

[loser098]

What is your problem? If we are talking about excess weight, then I can give you some effective advice.

I wish.

In fact, it's the opposite; I'm a skeleton. I have an unattractive face that nothing but surgery could address. Assuming I could afford that, I'd still be short.

Thanks for offering help, though.

 

[ropearoundatree]

Previously... I'd have answered, "Yes!" in a Heart-beat~
but now. . . 'No,' I'm afraid there are just too many factors at play--all of which I have little to no control over & so they are out of my hands--otherwise; I'm really curious to see what the answer would be for me?

 

[TapeMachine]

The days my medication actually works, I'm fine, no depression in sight. On these fortunate days, my brain doesn't spiral into the deepest depths of darkness, I don't overthink every miserable aspect of my being, I have energy/motivation to do the things I want and need to do.

I know it's just a bandaid, the medication- but hot damn, if it doesn't work as a fantastic distraction from the shitshow within my mind, as well as the shitshow masquerading as my day-to-day life.

The problem with relying on my medication to sustain said alleviation from my most detrimental symptoms is: the medication doesn't always work. Every month, for 1-2 weeks, it simply does not work (something to do with fluctuating hormones and whatnot?)

There doesn't seem to be a remedy for this either.

Some day (likely sooner than later), I will have had ALL I can take of the jarring unpredictability of my meds & my moods, and I'll put an end to it all.

In conclusion: yes, I could carry on living if my symptoms were sufficiently alleviated in a consistent manner. Unfortunately, further inconsistency is anticipated, and I am profoundly uninspired.

 

[jar-baby]

I think so. I'd still have my external circumstances to contend with and probably my existential crisis too— but I think my hopes and desires would win out and I'd push through. Or try to, anyway.

How about you?