Help If I only had a suicide pill

[LostSoul1609]

Suicide cases in my country brought to SN being really hard to obtain, and I can't get either N or SA.
I'm deadly scared of hanging and korean method, plus I live with my family so it would be hard to pull off without being found.
I honestly don't care about how painful or uncomfortable death is as long as it's reliable. I was thinking of going with poisonous plants but I don't know much about it.
Either that or it's train jumping honestly.

 

[heretogethelp]

Suicide cases in my country brought to SN being really hard to obtain, and I can't get either N or SA.
I'm deadly scared of hanging and korean method, plus I live with my family so it would be hard to pull off without being found.
I honestly don't care about how painful or uncomfortable death is as long as it's reliable. I was thinking of going with poisonous plants but I don't know much about it.
Either that or it's train jumping honestly.

I have to live as my mum will suffer a mental breakdown if i ctb :(

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

I have to live as my mum will suffer a mental breakdown if i ctb :(

So, I understand this, as the reactions of my mother and husband are what keep me from going ahead with ctb, but I still know that at some point my need must supersede theirs. If the only thing keeping me alive is other people's desire for me to live, that is not enough to sustain me. How much pain can our loved ones expect us to endure?

 

[heretogethelp]

So, I understand this, as the reactions of my mother and husband are what keep me from going ahead with ctb, but I still know that at some point my need must supersede theirs. If the only thing keeping me alive is other people's desire for me to live, that is not enough to sustain me. How much pain can our loved ones expect us to endure?

I understand where you're coming from, but i can't disappoint my mum for personal reasons.

 

[FuneralCry]

I would do anything for a suicide pill really. I also live with family members, so I would have the risk of being found too early. I am worried about failing a method. Apart from that there is the survival instinct. It really is hard to die.

 

[Mozarella_Man]

It sucks that SN is so hard to get now. I wish I bought something like the peaceful pill handbook and found out about it earlier

 

[LostSoul1609]

Maybe nicotine suicide could do it. I'm thinking about it and it doesn't sound too bad