If I had a family, I don’t think Id be as suicide as I am.

[pinkdarlingg]

This isn't for pity points, just venting, but truly, I wish I had a real family.

I'm at my friends house and they're all sitting at the dining table laughing and exchanging stories.

Her family treats me like I'm one of their own. I've come to accept that I don't have the family I want, but it's so fucking hard. I cant believe people can talk to their parents about their crushes. I cant believe there are parents out there who don't hit their kids, scream at them, tell them they're worthless and ungrateful every other day. I cant believe there are parents out there who put their child's needs first and that there are parents out there who do fun things with their kids instead of separating them from society. Give them advice. Just…love them. Parents who kids can say they love and mean it.

You can change many things, but you cant change who you're related to. You cant go back in time and make it so that you were born to other people. I'll have my family as a part of my life forever, whether I want to or not.

Love is something that every child should have the right to as soon as they're born, but for some fucked reason, God decided I was not worth it. So it hurts, you know? Seeing people with the life you desire so much but can't have. I have wonderful people in my life and a best friend that I think of as a sister. But god…what I would do to make the woman and man who created me raised me right.

 

[Nagito]

I'm sorry to hear you're going through this. No one deserves to be born to parents that don't care/hurt their children. Each child is deserving of love and shouldn't have to long for a family that cares.

 

[DukeDestroyer]

My family is like yours. I wish my family was more like my GF'S family. It sucks.

 

[Zegers]

I can relate and it hurts. I think if i had a good family i wouldn't be in this situation or maybe i would but it wouldn't feel so bad every bloody day.

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

I understand, and I empathize.

When I was in my 20s, I met a wonderful woman who took me under her wing and let me know I was worth loving. She included me in her big, loving family and I got a taste of what I thought was only on TV.

My family still sucks. It took many years for me to recognize just how fucked up my childhood was. We would be forced to sit for hours while my mother yelled at us, tried to break us, tried to coerce a confession to being ungrateful, sloppy children who did not appreciate her and all her hard work. My father was a functional alcoholic who was blamed by my mother for everything that was wrong in our family. After they divorced, my mother thought it was a good idea to tell me and my siblings that my father never wanted children in the first place.

I believe to this day that my bipolar disorder is caused not just by a fucked up brain chemistry but also by the hell I lived through as a child. I believe the environment caused the genetic switch to "flip" and render me ill for my entire life.

The funny thing is that I did eventually find someone who truly loves me and we have a pretty awesome life. My bipolar's been kept in check for a while and things are pretty good.

Please don't let your family fuck with you forever. They're not worth it, but you are.

 

[BlazingBob]

My parents hate each other and their kids. No family holidays birthdays etc. I don't give a shit how my suicide will affect my 'family' My parents will probably be thrilled. They sure made it explicitly clear how much they regretted having kids. "I wish you were never born" was an utterance that emanated from their filthy pie holes quite frequently. That and too many other zingers to mention. My mom never ever hugged or told me she loved me growing up. I never had that parent child bonding. I have two older brothers. They're dicks. Zero contact with any of them except my mom occasionally but it's never pleasant. Her disdain can be felt through the phone. I just spent my 50th birthday alone. No family could be bothered to show up at my college graduation. Like the original poster said it really hurts seeing more normal families. If there is one, hopefully the next life will be better because this one blows.

 

[death's lover]

This isn't for pity points, just venting, but truly, I wish I had a real family.

I'm at my friends house and they're all sitting at the dining table laughing and exchanging stories.

Her family treats me like I'm one of their own. I've come to accept that I don't have the family I want, but it's so fucking hard. I cant believe people can talk to their parents about their crushes. I cant believe there are parents out there who don't hit their kids, scream at them, tell them they're worthless and ungrateful every other day. I cant believe there are parents out there who put their child's needs first and that there are parents out there who do fun things with their kids instead of separating them from society. Give them advice. Just…love them. Parents who kids can say they love and mean it.

You can change many things, but you cant change who you're related to. You cant go back in time and make it so that you were born to other people. I'll have my family as a part of my life forever, whether I want to or not.

Love is something that every child should have the right to as soon as they're born, but for some fucked reason, God decided I was not worth it. So it hurts, you know? Seeing people with the life you desire so much but can't have. I have wonderful people in my life and a best friend that I think of as a sister. But god…what I would do to make the woman and man who created me raised me right.

I don't have parents , I never had a family. So all I wanted to do and all I wished for was to get married to a really nice guy so that I could finally have a family but even that's not possible since I'm so fucked up no normal guy would like me.
I relate to you as well, I feel so jealous when I see other people with their families with a mom and dad who take actual care of them and treat them like actual human beings with feelings. It's so unfair that some of us don't have that and then these people with happy families judge us when we're suicidal, like they'll ever fucking understand people like us. They don't know what it's like and they'll never know.

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that it's disgusting how people bring life into this world just to treat them so badly. Procreation is already cruel and unnecessary enough without parents acting in such a way. It's really true that humans are responsible for so much torment that exists here and this is just the reality. It's incredibly unfair how so many people suffer so much all through no fault of their own.