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Suzzana
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- Jun 15, 2025
- 7
Idk what im supposed to do. i keep trying and failing and i am only getting older with more regrets and it just never really changes. this constant nagging feeling, maybe its neurological cos im sure i was born with it. I just need to get it over with but i just dont know how and i keep procrastinating i am so numb and lost and i know there is no way out yet i just keep wasting time. I keep fucking up more and more, the more i stay the worse i become in everyones eyes. i just want to stop existing. i need instructions on how to go peacfully and a list of things to do before i do. My choice has always been cyanide it might not be peaceful regardless it will get the job done, nothing is permanent, sometimes i crave pain.