Venting Idk im tired.

[Masaxcre_032]

I'm just tired of like everything, I never feel happy anymore. I manage to always lose people I care about all the time and I find myself so crippled missing them. I genuinely just hate living everyday life, so bad that I dread having to wake up and do anything. Nothing is exciting anymore and I just can't do anything without feeling like I just don't, I don't wanna do anything. Why does everything have to feel so tedious there's so much to do yet I feel like I just don't want to continue anything. I have no idea what to do I haven't been happy ever, my life has consisted of the most shitty circumstances ever. How do you even think to move forward knowing what's in your future is probably just as devastating and bleak as now? How do you move forward, how do you do anything? It's not going to get better maybe it will for a while but I will always come back to the familiarity of this feeling. This disgusting feeling where I just carnally feel nothing where everything frustrates me. Every time I'm somewhat happy I have a feeling of doubt, dread that it's not going to last forever, why won't I cherish it? Then I miss it the moment it's gone and I'm back to feeling nothing. The never ending cycle of nothing, waiting for someone to shine a light on my life, for a sun, something bright. The light never comes and I'm left in darkness only getting some respite by holding a dim lamp that'll run out of juice someday. I always have hope it won't but I know it eventually will, and I always end up disappointed despite the knowing that it always will.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

Same. And to make matters worse, the quality of the human race just keeps getting worse every year. Widespread brain rot everwhere and everybody has to act like an asswipe.

Why the fuck do we keep procreating and perpetuating this sick game of life. I'll really never get it. Just can't wait to be done with it.

For me, dying is the only cure. The way I see it, 99% of us are going to eventually suffer agonizing or horrific death anyways. I might as well have as much say as possible as to when and how and it happens.