Venting Idk how to feel

[Some place nice]

My moms friend got fired from his job, so my mom wont be getting that job anymore, which means that we wont be moving anymore. I'm happy cus now I don't feel rushed to do my Ctb anymore but, on the other hand my mom has to go with the original plan of fixing up this house to sell it. We were gonna move back to the country side. Which costs more money than moving to another state. I'm happy that I don't have to rush it but also sad bc my mom still has to suffer with this expensive ass house that she wants out of. Don't get me wrong, we love this house but the bills have gotten more expensive and our big family is just down to 3 people in this house. It gives me a way to get away from her, but the more stress she is in the more she takes it out on me. Idk how to actually feel I still kinda feel numb.