DogSandwich
You know, like a failure
- Apr 4, 2024
- 29
I am feeling a soulful freedom that I have not in some years.
I am free from the willful shackles of this ephemeral place, not to speak of the superficial systems that people have so desperately layered atop it.
I am constantly aware of my agency, the fact that I can, at any moment, choose to quit participating. No piece of this world has any dominion over me. I am my own god, I am my own ever-watching eye.
No longer will I choose to worry myself over something that, relatively, is a blink of a cosmic eye.
I can, and will, decide when and how to stop experiencing existential abuse.
Life and our clinging to it: it's Stockholm syndrome. You and I are hostage here, so we try to be amenable. We learn to love our captor because they are all we have.
But I know that there is another option. I do not have to be a sycophant to a place and a way that is, at best, indifferent and, at worst, sadistic.
I am free from the willful shackles of this ephemeral place, not to speak of the superficial systems that people have so desperately layered atop it.
I am constantly aware of my agency, the fact that I can, at any moment, choose to quit participating. No piece of this world has any dominion over me. I am my own god, I am my own ever-watching eye.
No longer will I choose to worry myself over something that, relatively, is a blink of a cosmic eye.
I can, and will, decide when and how to stop experiencing existential abuse.
Life and our clinging to it: it's Stockholm syndrome. You and I are hostage here, so we try to be amenable. We learn to love our captor because they are all we have.
But I know that there is another option. I do not have to be a sycophant to a place and a way that is, at best, indifferent and, at worst, sadistic.
