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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Tortured by evil humans
Sep 24, 2020
35,213
I'd honestly never be able to understand why anyone would wish to reach an old age, the thought of such terrifies me and sounds beyond hellish, I see no value and benefit in suffering for decades on end just to be tortured and tormented, decaying and dying in agony from old age.

And this is why suicide is all that feels rational to me as I simply don't want to suffer in any way, instead I want to be permanently unconscious, it's so horrific how we exist in such an anti-suicide society even know existing truly is just pointless suffering that serves no purpose and has no benefit.

Do anti-suicide people really want to die slowly and painfully from old age with no way to die in peace, it's insane wanting to ban all painless ways to die and deeply sadistic to want to make it so others are burdened with this existence for decades on end until their futile existence disappears into nothingness anyway.

The fact that a human can exist for so long, suffer so extremely and yet still not die terrifies me, I really wish I never existed more than anything, to have the ability to exist as a human is the most hellish, harmful imposition. It's an abomination to exist, it truly is disturbing how there's no limit as to how much one can suffer in this existence that was always so undesirable in the first place.
 
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iloverachel

Enlightened
Mar 7, 2024
1,198
I don't even want to reach young age. I don't even want to read kids age. I should have died the minute i was born.
 
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Optimu$

Death Is Non Negotiable
May 10, 2024
87
Actually there's something called the pro-aging trance in which most people don't aspire to be old and frail but they do put it out of theirs minds because they figure they'll either never age or that they'll deal with it when they do.

Future medical interventions will change the concept of aging so that you never pass the frailty threshold but unfortunately this kinda future biotechnology won't help the brain of a severely depressed person with deep routed problems because the brain is easily more complicated than everything else in the body combined.
 
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divinemistress36

Visionary
Jan 1, 2024
2,179
I worked briefly in a nursing home once and having to change diapers and colostomy bags it was horrendous it's truly cruel how much we keep people alive
 
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lizzywizzy09

Specialist
May 11, 2024
363
I'm suffering now at 34, I dread the thought of reaching old age with my health problems.
 
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Ironborn

Student
Jan 29, 2024
163
I worked briefly in a nursing home once and having to change diapers and colostomy bags it was horrendous it's truly cruel how much we keep people alive
How anyone can say that is a valid way to live is a psychopath. A friend of mine worked in a care home for a time but she had to quit, when she told me what it was like it was horrifying to hear.
 
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acephale

Miroir
May 12, 2024
39
I worked briefly in a nursing home once and having to change diapers and colostomy bags it was horrendous it's truly cruel how much we keep people alive
I can relate to this, I had to do it to my grandfather for a year before he passed away. Tbh It was meaningless suffering.
 
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etherealspring

etherealspring

can someone just kill me already
Mar 27, 2024
85
i dont want to die old either. yesterday my boyfriend was saying he wanted me to "live a long life" and i honestly felt a bit sick after hearing that. i didnt even want to live past 18 and now in less than 2 weeks im already gonna be 19. i feel utterly incapable of living, let alone living until i die of old age
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
3,360
Same. Old age is absolutely awful and wanting to live through old age is absolutely irrational. I truly can't comprehend as to why pro lifers want to suffer so much. It makes me feel like I'm an alien here but I know that I'm in the right for not wanting to suffer
 
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derpyderpins

derpyderpins

I was wrong
Sep 19, 2023
950
I worked briefly in a nursing home once and having to change diapers and colostomy bags it was horrendous it's truly cruel how much we keep people alive
There definitely gets to a point where I'd much rather be dead, and being able to wipe my own ass is a requirement to keep going.

I do understand having a bit of hope for being old and still able to take care of oneself. The pressures of youth and the career ladder far in the rearview mirror, so much of life experienced in order to distill what is the most important, and then using the newfound mental freedom to enjoy those most important things... It sounds nice.

But as soon as I can't take care of myself take me behind the barn with a 12 gauge.
 
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
1,685
While I don't want to die of old age, I do understand why that might appeal to someone. For one, living a long life is typically glorified by society, so a lot of people grow up with this idea that dying of old age is the ultimate privilege, even though it isn't. It's neutral. There is nothing inherently good or bad about dying of old age. Whether you view it as a positive or not is completely subjective, but when everyone around you glorifies and romanticizes something, opinions start being treated as facts.

Secondly, some people just enjoy life. They find that the good outweighs the bad for them, so living a long life and dying of old age sounds like a dream to them. I personally say good for them. I'm glad that they enjoy being alive and I hope that anyone who wants to die of old age has their dream come true. However, if I don't want to live a long life and would prefer to die on my terms, then I should be granted the same level of respect.

Thirdly, some people just really fear death. The human brain doesn't like things that aren't familiar to it. It fears the unknown. This fear is part of why our species has advanced so far, as it motivates us to become more familiar with our world so that we don't have to fear it. It causes us to create stories to explain the things we are unable to explain yet. It also causes us to fear things, like death, because it's this inevitable event that every one of us is destined to experience. We don't like unknowable things, and what death is like and what happens after it is one of them. To add insult to injury, we have evolved to survive and live. Our bodies have been engineered to try and keep on going, no matter what gets in our way. Sometimes it's our body's attempts at keeping us alive that end up killing us in the end. This is why we have an SI. We instinctually want to live, even if we consciously don't. That primitive part of us that we have no control over causes us to not want to die. This only works to further our fears of death when intertwined with our fear of the unknown. This is probably one of the largest factors that explains why people are so attracted to the idea of dying of old age. Dying of old age means you've gotten to postpone the inevitable for as long as you can.
 
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sserafim

sserafim

they say it’s darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
8,422
i dont want to die old either. yesterday my boyfriend was saying he wanted me to "live a long life" and i honestly felt a bit sick after hearing that. i didnt even want to live past 18 and now in less than 2 weeks im already gonna be 19. i feel utterly incapable of living, let alone living until i die of old age
Why do people equate long with good?
 
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Leiden

Specialist
Sep 1, 2020
395
It's truly terrifying
 
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halleyscomet

halley
Mar 26, 2024
310
The thought of growing so old, that you begin to watch your own body decay and begin to fail is terrifying to me. Being so brittle and frail and tired sounds torturous. I've seen videos of people on their 100th birthday saying they hope it's their last year, I can't imagine at that age there is any quality of life. How is it humane to keep people in pain for so long?
 
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DEATH IS FREEDOM

DEATH IS FREEDOM

Death is the solution to unsolvable problems.
Sep 13, 2023
608
Old people become much like children. They lose their health and appearance - slowly tortured to death over decades. At the end of life, some of them become bedridden with diapers. There is no dignity with this horrible life. However, my relatives want to live and die this way. I think that all humans should have the right to euthanasia before they get old. This should be a self-evident human right. The pets are euthanized before they get old. It is strange that the politicians did not think about this long ago.
 
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Jorms_McGander

Arcanist
Oct 17, 2023
478
First I wanted to teleport to being old and happy with a partner.
Then I wanted to teleport to being old and wise with lots of wrinkles.
Now I've got a taste of the pain of age. What the fuck was I thinking lol.

I wanted old age as a concept, but from the perspective of middle age it's just something that happened to me. My suicidal ideation is gonna vote in its third election lmfao that's how long I've wanted to die.

But if wishes were horses, one would step on my head.
 
Rational man

Rational man

Enlightened
Oct 19, 2021
1,384
I think old age appears before we realise its even old. The faiing body and illness is almost certain and a reminder that we all do die. I also wondered if some people want very old age because they are afraid of death. We hide the old and sick and we treat old people like they are beyond use. We fear even talking about death. On a personal note, my disease will kill me eventually so old age will not greet me later, never.
 
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