GhostgirlWannadie
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- Oct 26, 2025
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The worst part is that i've actually started to feel a level of hope for the future. The entire last 2 weeks for me have been so up and down. I feel good one day, almost actually proud and then like an hour later I'm making plans to hang myself. I keep getting reminded of reasons i should die.
Being trans makes me wish i could just end. I've tried voice training for over a year and it feels like there's no chance I'll ever have a voice that passes. Seeing other women and knowing i could never be accepted like them or be like them. Even near other trans women I feel like an impostor. Someone told me i don't have the maneurisms of a girl and i hate thinking she might be right. I hate even walking since what if people think i walk like a male.
I've had constant violent thoughts. I've even had extremely impulsive and intrusive thoughts about hurting my cats. I love my cats. I haven't actually done anything to them and they're not scared of me but what kind of fucked up person would think of that? I've thought about hurting people. I'm just horrible.
Being trans makes me wish i could just end. I've tried voice training for over a year and it feels like there's no chance I'll ever have a voice that passes. Seeing other women and knowing i could never be accepted like them or be like them. Even near other trans women I feel like an impostor. Someone told me i don't have the maneurisms of a girl and i hate thinking she might be right. I hate even walking since what if people think i walk like a male.
I've had constant violent thoughts. I've even had extremely impulsive and intrusive thoughts about hurting my cats. I love my cats. I haven't actually done anything to them and they're not scared of me but what kind of fucked up person would think of that? I've thought about hurting people. I'm just horrible.
