albstr1403

albstr1403

I’m tired
May 25, 2024
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I went through a few surgeries and some heavy duty meds.. and the aftermath is me feeling like my body is on fire, burning mouth syndrome, in 24/7 fight or flight anxiety, digestive issues, moderate to severe mecfs. I already had Narcolepsy, and i can't take stimulants without the above symptoms getting worse. I'm On disability, housebound. I can barely do anything and it's been years.

I'm literally cycling between narcolepsy attacks, and panic attacks when i have pockets of being awake like its some kind of medieval torture lmao. I need out.

Is anyone else chronically ill or with an iatrogenic injury thinking about ending it?
 
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thealteredmind

thealteredmind

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Apr 2, 2024
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yup.

pssd although one symptom left... but it's like an extremely important symptom (basically my spirit died)

but also benzo withdrawal that doesn't improve (even from short term usage, with a slow and careful tapering). with annoying symptoms that don't get better, basically with my life more limited than before... there's a lot of stuff I can't do because I get extreme symptoms... like eating certain stuff or any kind of exercise.

add to that the insomnia (which at this moment is... quiet, but also because I'm having a pretty relaxed life with no responsabilities) and the depression (which gets worse every year and is untreatable)

so... yes. just a couple months more and I'm out.
 
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albstr1403

albstr1403

I’m tired
May 25, 2024
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yup.

pssd although one symptom left... but it's like an extremely important symptom (basically my spirit died)

but also benzo withdrawal that doesn't improve (even from short term usage, with a slow and careful tapering). with annoying symptoms that don't get better, basically with my life more limited than before... there's a lot of stuff I can't do because I get extreme symptoms... like eating certain stuff or any kind of exercise.

add to that the insomnia (which at this moment is... quiet, but also because I'm having a pretty relaxed life with no responsabilities) and the depression (which gets worse every year and is untreatable)

so... yes. just a couple months more and I'm out.
Ugh, a gabaergic drug is what did me in.
I understand all the triggers, i miss working out hard so much.

how are you going out?
 

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