irie
Member
- Mar 10, 2023
- 98
it's something i've been putting off, but it's finished. i don't really know how much longer i'll be around, or, if i'll even have it in me to finally bring myself to ctb as much as i constantly and desperately want to almost daily, but i'm hoping to go soon. it's strange, honestly, being so detached from all of my family that none of them are going to see it (it's going to be sent to my partner and 2 other close friends), but that's just how things are, i guess. i opened up about my suffering, thanked them, apologized that it had to come to this, and assured them that it was no one's fault. hopefully that suffices.
on another note, i'd just like to thank everything here. for the first time in my life, being here has made me feel understood, at the very least. it's something you won't get opening up anywhere else. elsewhere, it's usually just a shallow "things will get better," but here everyone is much more honest than that, and i appreciate having a place like this more than you can imagine. it is truly a shame that things can't be better, that things are generally just shit and that multiple systems have failed many of us and that there's no other option, but i'm glad we have each others backs in the midst of all the suffering. i more often than not just lurk around here as i struggle with communication, but again, i really appreciate it.
on another note, i'd just like to thank everything here. for the first time in my life, being here has made me feel understood, at the very least. it's something you won't get opening up anywhere else. elsewhere, it's usually just a shallow "things will get better," but here everyone is much more honest than that, and i appreciate having a place like this more than you can imagine. it is truly a shame that things can't be better, that things are generally just shit and that multiple systems have failed many of us and that there's no other option, but i'm glad we have each others backs in the midst of all the suffering. i more often than not just lurk around here as i struggle with communication, but again, i really appreciate it.
