deflagrat

deflagrat

¡Si hablas español mándame un mensaje privado!
Apr 9, 2018
360
I am psychologically ready to kill myself if it's in my own room (or my house). I have thought about it for long (years), and I even picture it as a good ending. But there is one problem: I can't do it because my parents would try to save me, so my only option would be to die in a camping tent near the road. I am also afraid about the possibility of the house being sold for less if I kill myself inside. At first I thought about convincing my mother to let me die inside the house, but I am not sure if that's going to work.

It's just that I don't really want to die outside, in a random place. Yes, it's hidden and I won't be found, but I want to die peacefully in my house, not in some hidden place. I also don't want to die in a hotel because I would need way too much time and I would be found way too early.

My method is Amitriptyline, Valium and metoclopramide. I already have enough Amitriptyline and Valium for 3 attempts, and I will ask for metoclopramide the moment I am ready to do it.
 
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Jc40

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Mar 3, 2019
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I am psychologically ready to kill myself if it's in my own room (or my house). I have thought about it for long (years), and I even picture it as a good ending. But there is one problem: I can't do it because my parents would try to save me, so my only option would be to die in a camping tent near the road. I am also afraid about the possibility of the house being sold for less if I kill myself inside. At first I thought about convincing my mother to let me die inside the house, but I am not sure if that's going to work.

It's just that I don't really want to die outside, in a random place. Yes, it's hidden and I won't be found, but I want to die peacefully in my house, not in some hidden place. I also don't want to die in a hotel because I would need way too much time and I would be found way too early.

My method is Amitriptyline, Valium and metoclopramide. I already have enough Amitriptyline and Valium for 3 attempts, and I will ask for metoclopramide the moment I am ready to do it.
Do you live with your parents?
 
Empty Smile

Empty Smile

The final Bell has rung. Goodbye to all.
Jul 13, 2018
1,785
Finding your suitable place is always the hard part. I have come to terms of where I want to go when I ctb.

Do you have a favorite place you like going to just to visit, or clear your mind on one of those rough days?

Mine is in the woods. I've spent many years of my life wandering through the woods, and have decided there is no better place than in the woods for me to ctb.
 
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deflagrat

¡Si hablas español mándame un mensaje privado!
Apr 9, 2018
360
Do you live with your parents?
Yes. I am thinking about ctbing when my father dies, so it will be just my mother. Even if my father is still alive, I don't really need to tell him, because he won't listen to me anyways. I just have to make sure I have a good excuse for not being seen the next day.
 
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JadedGray

JadedGray

Life Eternal
Jul 24, 2018
991
I am psychologically ready to kill myself if it's in my own room (or my house). I have thought about it for long (years), and I even picture it as a good ending. But there is one problem: I can't do it because my parents would try to save me, so my only option would be to die in a camping tent near the road. I am also afraid about the possibility of the house being sold for less if I kill myself inside. At first I thought about convincing my mother to let me die inside the house, but I am not sure if that's going to work.

It's just that I don't really want to die outside, in a random place. Yes, it's hidden and I won't be found, but I want to die peacefully in my house, not in some hidden place. I also don't want to die in a hotel because I would need way too much time and I would be found way too early.

My method is Amitriptyline, Valium and metoclopramide. I already have enough Amitriptyline and Valium for 3 attempts, and I will ask for metoclopramide the moment I am ready to do it.
If you have a vehicle you could try parking it somewhere remote and doing it in there.
 
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Princessangel

Member
May 14, 2019
17
I have this same problem and am going the same method, I have amtriptline and metro just need benzo
 
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Donewith_

Elementalist
Sep 28, 2018
876
I am too thinking about the same
Idk what to do
 
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