I would be happy if i was diagonsed with covid19

[Buffy5120]

I'm not a health expert by any means, but it seems like only a small subset of people are getting strokes while having covid-19 symptoms. However, blood clotting in large arteries in the brain can kill you as long as you don't receive quick treatment.

Yeah i mean i did have a TIA(ministroke) back in nov 18' and did an eeg where they saw little seizures in my sleep only. But i never had a full blown seizure all due to an adverse reaction to zoloft. So thats why im worried i may be at risk. Im also so fucking unlucky obviously (adverse reaction to zoloft like really?) i might survive the stroke too I mean i still havent heard any 20 year olds getting in. Where are you from? Im asking because do you think there will be a second wave. Here in NY cuomo isnt that stupid to open up any time soon due to the larger population in NY. So im just like fuck there may not be a second wave i better hurry and get it now before its too late. Like just imagine you actually ctb from this and dont have to go back and fourth on finding a method

 

[zubruwka]

I feel the same, a month ago I got most of the COVID symptoms and I was hoping that it was it and I might finally die, unfortunately I got over it
I wouldn't want to get others infected though
But it was my hope because the only thing stopping me from killing myself is that some people might blame themselves afterwards

 

[Buffy5120]

Damn sucks where are you from?

 

[per_aspera_ad_astra]

Yeah i mean i did have a TIA(ministroke) back in nov 18' and did an eeg where they saw little seizures in my sleep only. But i never had a full blown seizure all due to an adverse reaction to zoloft. So thats why im worried i may be at risk. Im also so fucking unlucky obviously (adverse reaction to zoloft like really?) i might survive the stroke too I mean i still havent heard any 20 year olds getting in. Where are you from? Im asking because do you think there will be a second wave. Here in NY cuomo isnt that stupid to open up any time soon due to the larger population in NY. So im just like fuck there may not be a second wave i better hurry and get it now before its too late. Like just imagine you actually ctb from this and dont have to go back and fourth on finding a method

Yeah i mean i did have a TIA(ministroke) back in nov 18' and did an eeg where they saw little seizures in my sleep only. But i never had a full blown seizure all due to an adverse reaction to zoloft. So thats why im worried i may be at risk. Im also so fucking unlucky obviously (adverse reaction to zoloft like really?) i might survive the stroke too I mean i still havent heard any 20 year olds getting in. Where are you from? Im asking because do you think there will be a second wave. Here in NY cuomo isnt that stupid to open up any time soon due to the larger population in NY. So im just like fuck there may not be a second wave.

I'm from MN, and there haven't been a lot of cases around my area. I'll admit that I don't really know if there will be a second wave, I think that depends on how quickly treatments are developed and if people continue to remain in quarantine.

 

[Buffy5120]

I'm from MN, and there haven't been a lot of cases around my area. I'll admit that I don't really know if there will be a second wave, I think that depends on how quickly treatments are developed and if people continue to remain in quarantine.

If you were in my situation what would you do? I can definitely ctb from this. Im just scared if i survive it i might be paralyzed from a stroke.

 

[FireFox]

I love the media attention you get when you die of covid19. In the UK where i live the daily mail and newspapers give you the information about the people who died. It is so nice and postive the way they are described.

I love this forum because i can truly express how i feel and be listened to.

The outside world is judgemental and will brand me a sick person

I am an sick person.

I will never be normal.
I will never meet a guy who love me for me
I will never find my place in this world
Death is a relief for me.
Sucicide for me is about escaping this world i dont belong in.

 

[per_aspera_ad_astra]

If you were in my situation what would you do? I can definitely ctb from this. Im just scared if i survive it i might be paralyzed from a stroke.

If my goal was to just successfully ctb, I would probably just pick a more reliable method. Dying of covid-19 would be nice, but if I had to worry about not dying due to effective treatments or being paralyzed from a stroke, then it seems like I'm basically just playing a lottery of life and death where the results are skewed towards life. I guess it's possible to survive with any ctb method, but not having control over what covid-19 will do to you makes survival more likely.