I would be happy if i was diagonsed with covid19

[FireFox]

I am actually a horrible person because i want to die of covid19.

I keep seeing on the news all the young nurses and doctor dying of covid19. They had so much to live for and look forward too.They had children, they had partners, they were helping people and have done so well with thier lives

I would be happy if died of covi19 so i wont have to deal with my problems anymore. Death for me would be a relief from everything. If i die i will never see what i will become in the future.

I dont deserve to live . I really dont .out of all the people in the world i deserve to die.

I have nothing to live for

I am a burden on my family they are always worrying about me. If i die they never have to worry about me. I am an embrassment to them. Relatives ask what job i am doing my family cant answer. I failed to be a real adult and i am emotionally immature.

I have no boyfriend: A relationship would have given me everything to live for. I would be loved, i will have a purpose, i wont be lonely and my life would be more interesting.

I feel so traped in my life. I dont belong in this world and i will never find my place in this world.

 

[Weightoftheworld]

I've actually had this same thought. My lungs aren't the best, I almost died of pneumonia last year (unfortunately I didn't, lol) and I've been warned I may not be so lucky next time so I was actually hoping to catch covid.

 

[bpdandme]

You are so kind and caring Fire Fox, you deserve to live it is your mentality telling you that you are not worth it. Please PM me if you need me, sending love.

 

[Schweppes]

I feel the same way

 

[Flump]

Nobody deserves to die, everyone should have a choice but we don't, life is so cruel.

 

[Kumachan]

Why on earth would anyone want to die of covid...

 

[Marktheghost]

No, you don't want to die of Covid 19. Use Sodium nitrite (if you die at all), it's much less unpleasant.

 

[mediocre]

I'm suicidal but I am doing everything to protect myself from coronavirus. Because I know it will only make me potentially very ill and I am unlikely to die from it. Even with all my health problems. The universe will make me suffer through it and past it. So I wouldn't advise trying to catch it as you are unlikely to die from it either unless you have very serious health issues or are elderly:/

 

[a.n.kirillov]

Are you sure you want to lay in a crowded hospital bed with a plastic bag over your head, suffocating for two weeks? No, I think you would regret having wished this upon yourself.

 

[Letmego. Please]

If I caught it I would just stay at home, tell no one & hope it killed me.

Sadly I never see anyone to catch it off. I need to get out more lol

 

[Buffy5120]

I've actually had this same thought. My lungs aren't the best, I almost died of pneumonia last year (unfortunately I didn't, lol) and I've been warned I may not be so lucky next time so I was actually hoping to catch covid.

Where do you live?

If I caught it I would just stay at home, tell no one & hope it killed me.

Sadly I never see anyone to catch it off. I need to get out more lol

where are you from?

 

[Elbarado]

 

[Buffy5120]

Why are you so mad?

 

[MaybeSoon]

I can see the appeal. I've often wished to get a terminal illness so I could die a death which other people could accept a lot more easily. The pain and suffering wouldn't bother me much.

The problem with Covid is that I could potentially spread it and harm others which is the last thing I would ever want to do.

 

[FireFox]

Are you sure you want to lay in a crowded hospital bed with a plastic bag over your head, suffocating for two weeks? No, I think you would regret having wished this upon yourself.

There are millions of people that have it worse than me.

I would rather die a painful death than live to see the next 10 years.

I dont want to be me anymore.

I want to stop exiting

 

[Elbarado]

Why are you so mad?

Well i have probably ALS, ist getting worse and worse almost every day.moving,breathing,and stuff. A common Life isnt possible anymore. Im 34,i Loved my life although i struggled with jobs and has hard times and wasnt always in the best moods. But i loved Sports,party,Friends and so on,although i regret that i was often too thoughtful and didnt enjoy every moment.
I know every one has his/her own good reasosns for beeing here,and also depressions and stuff is a serious illness,but i just pissed me off that someone wants a desease to end Life,although they are healthy. As long as you are healthy you can do so much in life and with your Life. You should try to fight for it.
It just makes me so mad

 

[FireFox]

Well i have probably ALS, ist getting worse and worse almost every day.moving,breathing,and stuff. A common Life isnt possible anymore. Im 34,i Loved my life although i struggled with jobs and has hard times and wasnt always in the best moods. But i loved Sports,party,Friends and so on,although i regret that i was often too thoughtful and didnt enjoy every moment.
I know every one has his/her own good reasosns for beeing here,and also depressions and stuff is a serious illness,but i just pissed me off that someone wants a desease to end Life,although they are healthy. As long as you are healthy you can do so much in life and with your Life. You should try to fight for it.
It just makes me so mad

I am very sorry . I had a feeling this post would touch a nerve.

It is really weird i dont want to be me anymore and dont want to see the future.

I have been sucidial for years and more and more i dont belong in this world.

 

[Squiddy]

I still would rather have a meteor hit me then die of covid

 

[FireFox]

It is not fair. It makes me angry.

I dont take care of my health and hate my life but i will end up live long but someone who loves their life and wants to live ends up dying .

I know one thing i dont want to see the next 10 years of my life.
I cant remember the last time i was happy.

I feel trapped in my life and see nothing changing.

I hate what i am
I am stupid, immature, single,(that is what my head tells me).

I hate being single it makes me feel unloved and undesired . I take an interest in the guys i like lives but never take an interest in me . I want someone to say they love me, take an interest in me.

Everyday i feel so lost in life i cant take it anymore. I was so used to being in education now i cant cope anymore.

Everyday i wake up feeling like failure and never feeling like i will find my place in this world.

As my birthday approaches it all becomes too much.

 

[Weightoftheworld]

Where do you live?

where are you from?

I'm from the US, Virginia to be precise.

 

[Walilamdzi]

I listened to Philip Nitschke talking about it and doesn't sound like a very nice way to go!

 

[ghost-key]

Can't say I agree. I feel like it would be a long, drawn out way to go instead of a rather peaceful or quick way you know?

 

[Buffy5120]

Can't say I agree. I feel like it would be a long, drawn out way to go instead of a rather peaceful or quick way you know?

Its still a way to go

 

[Xunnsu]

I feel similar. I haven't been a productive member of society for a very long time. My family is taking care of me. I almost never leave the house. I feel trapped in my head. I've been diagnosed with various mental disorders but no one seems to agree or know what is going on.

 

[per_aspera_ad_astra]

I get how you feel. I realize it's probably painful and drawn out, but I don't have the courage to directly take my own life. Killing myself through a disease would be easier for me.

 

[Buffy5120]

I get how you feel. I realize it's probably painful and drawn out, but I don't have the courage to directly take my own life. Killing myself through a disease would be easier for me.

Finally someone gets it but i think it may be too late in live in NY you think i still can get it?

 

[per_aspera_ad_astra]

Finally someone gets it but i think it may be too late in live in NY you think i still can get it?

At this point I think getting covid-19 is a matter of luck. You go out in areas filled with people and you get as close as you can to them, but you won't get any symptoms for a while (provided at least one of the people you were around had it), and the chance of you dying from it is another subject entirely...

 

[Flump]

Finally someone gets it but i think it may be too late in live in NY you think i still can get it?

I agree! At least it's a way to go I wouldn't fight it if I caught.

 

[Buffy5120]

I actually do have the health problems that i can ctb from if i get it. Only thing thats stopping me was all the news about people my age "24", getting a stroke. Its literally hard for me to make a decision to get it or not bc if i survive it and get a stroke, ill be paralyzed. I dont even know if i would be possible to do even do sn after that? @Flump & per_astra

 

[per_aspera_ad_astra]

I actually do have the health problems that i can ctb from if i get it. Only thing thats stopping me was all the news about people my age "24", getting a stroke. Its literally hard for me to make a decision to get it or not bc if i survive it and get a stroke, ill be paralyzed. I dont even know if i would be possible to do even do sn after that? @Flump & per_astra

I'm not a health expert by any means, but it seems like only a small subset of people are getting strokes while having covid-19 symptoms. However, blood clotting in large arteries in the brain can kill you as long as you don't receive quick treatment.