Today, I had one of the best dreams I could have ever had in my life. It was about me being a happy little kid and having a wonderful family and father, a father I never had and have always wished for throughout my entire life. When I woke up and realized that it was just a dream, I felt awful. Words can't describe just how bad I felt. It felt like a whole new level of emotional pain and betrayal.
Realizing that I'm still stuck with the people I don't like and a life I no longer wish to live in generally made me wish I had a better father and a quick and painless death. I wish I got my hands on carbon monoxide immediately.
Realizing that I'm still stuck with the people I don't like and a life I no longer wish to live in generally made me wish I had a better father and a quick and painless death. I wish I got my hands on carbon monoxide immediately.
