Im not actively suicidal, but ive always had a high level of suicidal ideation. If there was a drug that made me suicidal, i would take it. I have always admired people who managed to kill themselves. Younger the better. They essentially stole something from the society, themselves and the decades of slave labour expected of them. They set an example for the others. I understand that people who kill themselves are usually in great physical and/or mental pain, and there is hardly anything ideological about their actions at this point. But that's how i've always perceived them.
Those who say suicide doesnt solve nothing, lie. It solves everything. Not just all of your problems, but the problems of others too. They simply cease to exist, as you experience them. Most of us are practically completely powerless to influence or change the world in any meaningful way. And still we have to deal with the suffering of others, face it every day in some form. For what end? In the end, it's your suffering too, unless you are a sadistic fuck.
Those who say, stick around and try to change things, we all matter, lie as well. We are nothing more but drops of water that together form the sea, that slowly erodes some humanity into the system, built on the essence of millions and millions of slaves. A thousand years and a billion times billion cries of pain, and maybe something changes a tiny bit. Such a gratifying existence we have as a species.
Those who say suicide doesnt solve nothing, lie. It solves everything. Not just all of your problems, but the problems of others too. They simply cease to exist, as you experience them. Most of us are practically completely powerless to influence or change the world in any meaningful way. And still we have to deal with the suffering of others, face it every day in some form. For what end? In the end, it's your suffering too, unless you are a sadistic fuck.
Those who say, stick around and try to change things, we all matter, lie as well. We are nothing more but drops of water that together form the sea, that slowly erodes some humanity into the system, built on the essence of millions and millions of slaves. A thousand years and a billion times billion cries of pain, and maybe something changes a tiny bit. Such a gratifying existence we have as a species.
