Painless_end
Life is too difficult for me
- Oct 11, 2019
- 794
First, I wish I weren't born at all
But since I am born, with no control over it, I wish I wasn't who I am.
That may be easy, you say, just change your attitude, be positive and mentally strong blah blah blah
Do you think I would post here if I was all of the above ?
I have mental problems that make me feel like I have holes in the brain, where other people have brain cells for mental maturity and development. I think if you got those, you would also, in the absence of any other mental problems, be much more normal and functional as an adult. Thus having a higher chance to find a healthy partner, reproduce and reach physical old age.
But no such potential exists for me.
I am honestly living on like a shell. I can't bring myself to die. I go back to my very first sentence. I wish a person like me was never born.
Trust me, life or evolution has no benefit from birthing a person like me.
I hope I die quickly and peacefully. Death seems like the only way out of this nightmare.
But since I am born, with no control over it, I wish I wasn't who I am.
That may be easy, you say, just change your attitude, be positive and mentally strong blah blah blah
Do you think I would post here if I was all of the above ?
I have mental problems that make me feel like I have holes in the brain, where other people have brain cells for mental maturity and development. I think if you got those, you would also, in the absence of any other mental problems, be much more normal and functional as an adult. Thus having a higher chance to find a healthy partner, reproduce and reach physical old age.
But no such potential exists for me.
I am honestly living on like a shell. I can't bring myself to die. I go back to my very first sentence. I wish a person like me was never born.
Trust me, life or evolution has no benefit from birthing a person like me.
I hope I die quickly and peacefully. Death seems like the only way out of this nightmare.