I wish i was someone else

[FireFox]

I wish I was someone else and not me anymore. When I get rejected by a guy I always get so jealous of the women they end up with because I think they are luckiest women in the world being chosen by the men I really wanted.

People tell me rejection is a "blessing" or "rejection direction" i disagree because for me I see every rejection as the worst thing in the world. I really wanted those men who rejected me and me being rejected I see as a lost opportunity. I know 100% if I got the men I wanted I would have absolutely loved and cared fot them in the relationship.

I don't process rejection normally like other people. When I get rejected I go into severe depression and I feel like I have lost an opportunity not being chosen by that particular person. I feel rejection so intensely its hard to explain because these feelings can last many months and even longer. When people say "get over him" I just can't get over someone so easily the way they can so easily.

I make all the effort to ask guys out, care about their day and who they are as a person but still guys tell me I am not good enough for them they want another woman. All my life I have been that girl now woman who never gets picked and never had a guy really want her. It's hurts I have not been someone's crush or that person a man really wanted so much. At university I talk to people as I am very sociable but still I don't click with the guys and they don't click with me either too. The guys either have a girlfriend or interested in another woman but nobody sees me.

I wish I wasn't me anymore because guys don't see anything special in me and don't even want to know me. I wish was another woman, a woman that gets always noticed, wanted and picked.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

They're just saying that to make you feel better. Everyone gets hurt by rejection.

 

[Ozzyno]

I wish I was someone else and not me anymore. When I get rejected by a guy I always get so jealous of the women they end up with because I think they are luckiest women in the world being chosen by the men I really wanted.

People tell me rejection is a "blessing" or "rejection direction" i disagree because for me I see every rejection as the worst thing in the world. I really wanted those men who rejected me and me being rejected I see as a lost opportunity. I know 100% if I got the men I wanted I would have absolutely loved and cared fot them in the relationship.

I don't process rejection normally like other people. When I get rejected I go into severe depression and I feel like I have lost an opportunity not being chosen by that particular person. I feel rejection so intensely its hard to explain because these feelings can last many months and even longer. When people say "get over him" I just can't get over someone so easily the way they can so easily.

I make all the effort to ask guys out, care about their day and who they are as a person but still guys tell me I am not good enough for them they want another woman. All my life I have been that girl now woman who never gets picked and never had a guy really want her. It's hurts I have not been someone's crush or that person a man really wanted so much. At university I talk to people as I am very sociable but still I don't click with the guys and they don't click with me either too. The guys either have a girlfriend or interested in another woman but nobody sees me.

I wish I wasn't me anymore because guys don't see anything special in me and don't even want to know me. I wish was another woman, a woman that gets always noticed, wanted and picked.

Man I would love to be a woman and being able to write all of this without being mocked. I feel every single sentence you wrote. I really hope someone will eventually see the beautiful person you are.

 

[Lost Magic]

You wouldn't be valued by that person anyway, if you were in a relationship with them. I've seen so many people in relationships were one gives everything and the other gives nothing in return. If a person truly loved you, they would value you for who you are. I know it is tough to hear (I get it) but they are not right for you. I wish you the best!