i wish i had no one

[ineverlived]

How do I do this to my parents? It's scary to even think that my cat is dead, and they will lose their own children. they don't know anything but it pains me to see them. People who can laugh and have fun right now will be devastated because of me. On the other hand it is a necessity for me to die... if I continue to live in this world they will still suffer because of me. I don't care about myself anymore. I've accepted that my life is over, but thinking about my parents makes me so so so sad that i cant even describe. an unbearable agony...
I hope they can get through this

 

[gogg]

you sound like you care a lot for your family and they will remember you that way if your thinking of ctb. if you are gonna ctb consider finding someway to let them know that you feel a lot for them. Im sorry for your pain.

 

[sundown12]

I feel the same way, but ultimately I decided that my well-being is more important than being afraid of hurting other people's feelings, even if it's parents.

 

[Idontmatter]

I can relate. I'm going to feel the same about my husband. All I can do is hope he forgives me. I purposely got us a dog because when I ctb he will have our dog to help comfort him. They definitely love each other. The guilt is very difficult to get through but ctb is my final solution. I'm sorry that you have gotten to this point.

 

[farakini]

I felt this same way until I remembered how no one considered my feelings when they verbally abused me and forced me to isolate myself from everything and everyone that made me happy. They'll learn their lesson when I'm gone.

 

[Sad_Sack]

I struggle with it all of the time. In my case my parents are both gone and I only have my wife and children. As much as I don't want to hurt them I've been suffering for 30 years with my health and cognition and I have to admit that I'm not a mountain and enough is enough.

 

[Justnotme]

I understand you perfectly, I'm sorry that you are in such a state.
I am 25 years old, I live with my mother. My dad lives apart from us.
I think every day, every day without exception, that it is incredibly difficult for me to leave the world because I have parents.
I hope so much that all their attention will switch to my older sister and their grandson (my older sister has a son)
Every day I ask emptiness so that my parents don't have a strong grief and they quickly get back to normal and continue their journey if they want to.
Despite the fact that as a child I often faced the psychological aggression of my parents and the misunderstanding of my worldview (my father understands me much less than my mother), I still don't want to hurt them so much. But I'm so exhausted.

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be hard to deal with what you are going through, but the way that I see it, if I was to die what people would think would be none of my concern as I simply wouldn't be there to see it at that point, the dead are incapable of caring about anything. After all grief and loss are inevitable in life, everyone will have to face death someday and lose everything.

 

[gonecountry]

How do I do this to my parents? It's scary to even think that my cat is dead, and they will lose their own children. they don't know anything but it pains me to see them. People who can laugh and have fun right now will be devastated because of me. On the other hand it is a necessity for me to die... if I continue to live in this world they will still suffer because of me. I don't care about myself anymore. I've accepted that my life is over, but thinking about my parents makes me so so so sad that i cant even describe. an unbearable agony...
I hope they can get through this

I feel you. I am a mother myself, to 3 children under the age of 11. They are sincerely the sole reason for me still being here today. But I would never want them to feel this pain. It has gotten to the point where I know I am beyond help. I know they deserve better than I can possibly ever be capable of giving them, I am broken. They have a very loving father with an extremely loving family and I know they will be well looked after when I am gone. My family is non existent, it has been me on my own since I was 16 and I am now almost 30. I am epileptic, I have medication resistant grand mals, have never been able to drive on my own and therefor have always had to rely on others. I am tired of being a burden, I am tired of being a prisoner in my own body. I have seizures that scare people, my children included. Friends contact me at their convenience every few months when they need something. You get to a point where you have to consider everything but it's just not enough to make it bearable it anymore.

 

[foreverfalling]

Having someone means obligation to them, and continuing to suffer this existence for them. We want to end our suffering, so it is as if they are in the way of our goals.

 

[Sniffer]

I feel you. I am a mother myself, to 3 children under the age of 11. They are sincerely the sole reason for me still being here today. But I would never want them to feel this pain. It has gotten to the point where I know I am beyond help. I know they deserve better than I can possibly ever be capable of giving them, I am broken. They have a very loving father with an extremely loving family and I know they will be well looked after when I am gone. My family is non existent, it has been me on my own since I was 16 and I am now almost 30. I am epileptic, I have medication resistant grand mals, have never been able to drive on my own and therefor have always had to rely on others. I am tired of being a burden, I am tired of being a prisoner in my own body. I have seizures that scare people, my children included. Friends contact me at their convenience every few months when they need something. You get to a point where you have to consider everything but it's just not enough to make it bearable it anymore.

Have you checked out Xenon Pharmaceuticals drug XEN1101 in Phase 3 for Focal and Generalised Tonic Clonic. Phase 2 was a wonder drug for Focal Onset. It might help you. There is a Phase 3 trial starting soon. You may be eligible.

 

[gimzero]

I have to one and i hope to not find me i read that a women found after 25 days after death!