Discussion I wish I had anorexia

[ZardozOmega]

Am I bad for wanting to be anorexic?

 

[JigsawFeelin]

I mean,
I've been anorexic for 8 years and it's a huge part of why I want to die.
Sick all the time, lost friendships/relationships... it's damaged my vision, damaged my bones and I have early onset osteoporosis at 25 years of age. You do you. But it's ruined my life.

 

[x~Sophia~x]

I've never known of anyone wanting to be anorexic, it's usually an illness that just happens usually due to some kind of trauma.
Can I ask why?

 

[Isadeth]

I'm currently in recovery from anorexia. I've had it for 16 years. Unfortunately, the damage is done and I have osteoporosis and have broken multiple bones. Not along ago, last year, I broke my femur from slipping (not falling) on snow. The strongest bone in my body had a high impact fracture commonly seen in sky diving and car accidents... slipping. Not to mention the countless stomach ulcers, ng tubes, the fights with loved ones, the countless lies and betrayals... refeeding, which is its own personal hell... I could go on and on. I wouldn't wish it on anyone. I hope you reconsider because it's a nightmare. Do you want it for attention? To change your body? Why would you want it?

 

[Miss_Takes]

Am I bad for wanting to be anorexic?

Youre not bad .... potentially misguided and looking for an outward expression of something so that others notice perhaps ... but not bad.
I am not anorexic and never have been so I will leave the realities of anorexia to those who are enduring it to share.

 

[Puddings]

As someone who has been fat for most of my life I can say that I have wished this myself. But you come to realize that it's the same monster you are fighting. You wont be at peace. There will still be a war against food inside of you albeit just in another form.

 

[Stolen Absolution]

I developed anorexia this year as an unhealthy coping mechanism due to trauma. I'm naturally already very thin, so it didn't take long for me to drop to 88 lbs. I'm afraid of the long-term complications, but at the same time, unable to fight the control it has over me now. It's all I have left.

It's not a fun life. It's being a slave to food. In an effort to gain control, you lose it. To food. It's finally eating just to feel immense guilt. I haven't suffered the injuries/damage others have on this thread. Yet. I'm sure it's only a matter of time.

My aunt has had severe organ damage from long-term anorexia and doesn't have much time left. If I'm being honest, I wish my heart would just give out from it.

 

[ZardozOmega]

As someone who has been fat for most of my life I can say that I have wished this myself. But you come to realize that it's the same monster you are fighting. You wont be at peace. There will still be a war against food inside of you albeit just in another form.

Yeah, I'm fat and I hate it.

 

[Aap]

Anorexia is more acutely unhealthy than obesity (you can starve yourself to death far faster than eating yourself to death). Both can introduce severe, lifelong, though different, issues.

Perhaps a better goal might be to get healthy. Starvation is the absolute worst way to lose weight, both in health and long term retention.

 

[death137]

I don't think you are. I feel you. I also want to have it.

 

[foxdie]

I'm not quite anorexic but I've been chronically underweight my whole life. Had the opposite problem, never been able to put on weight. I've often wished I could be bigger, eat bigger portions, enjoy food more. I feel yeah, the grass always seems greener on the other side.

 

[Nymph]

I don't think you're bad, I get what you mean. I used to struggle with my weight and now I'm doing alright just because the meds I take make my metabolism faster but without those I'd be helpless. Watching some vids from anorexic or post anorexic ppl might enlighten your view on anorexia and show you how truly terrible it is though. I don't wish to have anorexia because it is kind of the same thing I'm dealing with just on the opposite spectrum.

 

[caligula]

as an anorexic person, it's 99% work and 1% weight loss. rarely anyone gets that boney look. i'm lucky enough i did.... a thigh gap too. it's not fun in the long run tho. that feeling of control everyone talks abt either goes away or you get bored of it, so you stop gaining pleasure but you can't stop starving. (edit: as annoying as it it, starving keeps me alive. things like "oh i can't die until im 80 lbs or everyone will think i look fat in the casket" , and "i want to scare the person performing my autopsy by how terrifyingly small i am")

Am I bad for wanting to be anorexic?

 

[stygal]

I hope you mean by being anorexic being skinny...because being skinny can actually be enjoyable whereas anorexia is a mental disease which does not even mean the person is skinny/underweight.
I started showing anorexic tendencies in high school long before I actually became underweight and still hold onto some coping mechanism regarding food eventhough I'm not underweight anymore.
It's torture and I wish it on nobody.

To actually achieve the "trained/skinny" look you just need to work out about 4-5 times a week and stick to a stricter/healthier diet without actually fasting/restricting too much. It's a lot of work but 1000 times more worth it than starving.

 

[Teal_Blue_Dreams]

Am I bad for wanting to be anorexic?

i actually totally understand this! can i also say that im glad everyone is kind and open minded about your question? but yeah, i am like why can't i just not eat? this sounds stupid but i want to be deathly afraid of cupcakes not dreaming about them! (actually, i dreamed about cupcakes last night and guess what I'm baking right now? ha!)

 

[lotus11]

believe me that you don't, I have had it for 10 years, It still hasn't killed me and without it, I would not be on this site wanting to die. What a serious ed seems like and the reality is two different things. I guess the first couple of years are more what it seems like to the outside world but once you have gone through it for years you have ruined your entire body and your life. friends, relationships, career goals and even your looks. You turn skinny to look better I'm not even 30 yet and now I have acquired prominent wrinkles on my face, no man will ever want me. I have been rejected again and again recently since this has happened to my face. Also if you don't have it, there is a massive illusion that society will help you/ they won't.

 

[ZardozOmega]

I hope you mean by being anorexic being skinny...because being skinny can actually be enjoyable whereas anorexia is a mental disease which does not even mean the person is skinny/underweight.
I started showing anorexic tendencies in high school long before I actually became underweight and still hold onto some coping mechanism regarding food eventhough I'm not underweight anymore.
It's torture and I wish it on nobody.

To actually achieve the "trained/skinny" look you just need to work out about 4-5 times a week and stick to a stricter/healthier diet without actually fasting/restricting too much. It's a lot of work but 1000 times more worth it than starving.

No, I mean anorexic. As I understand, you don't need discipline to be anorexic, your body does it for you. You do need discipline to be skinny though.

 

[WornOutLife]

I don't think that's a good idea!
Anyway, your thread is really unusual. I never saw somebody wanting to be anorexic!

 

[Isadeth]

No, I mean anorexic. As I understand, you don't need discipline to be anorexic, your body does it for you. You do need discipline to be skinny though.

You don't need discipline? Anorexia is literally discipline inside a mental health disorder. Most restrict to feel control over something when life feels so uncontrollable. Eventually, your body takes over and physically gets sick and exhausted with eating. Your mind races a million miles a minute trying to decide if the food you're about to eat is "safe" or not. Then you have the comorbid diagnosis of body dysmorphia. That's a real fun disorder... let me tell you. You can't trust your own eyes regarding your body type, shape, or proportions. You avoid photos or mirrors ---sometimes both. You are constantly freezing once your body has depleted its resources.

Anorexia as a symptom (lack of appetite) comes and goes without much thought.
Anorexia Nervosa is deeply psychological and deadly.

Anorexia Nervosa: Definition, Symptoms, & Treatment

Get the facts on anorexia nervosa definition, symptoms, treatment, warning signs, 3 types, diagnosis, effects, and statistics on this eating disorder. Anorexics starve themselves or use laxatives, enemas, or diuretics to control their weight.

www.medicinenet.com

 

[shay23]

You don't.