TiredTurtle
Student
- Oct 29, 2023
- 103
I really wish that I didn't have to die, I have tried everything I possibly can for years and reached out for help in every way possible and been treated with nothing but abuse and neglect by those who were trusted to help me.
The only reason I'm still alive is because I'm trying a few more last ditch attempts to salvage what little is left of my life as I prepare to ctb.
If these last attempts fail then I can die knowing I tried absolutely everything possible in my power to keep going but I think deep down I know recovery is nothing but a fantasy but I still have to try and fight for that 1% chance.
I'm ashamed to still be alive and still searching for the right method here, I feel as though I should have died months ago.
The only reason I'm still alive is because I'm trying a few more last ditch attempts to salvage what little is left of my life as I prepare to ctb.
If these last attempts fail then I can die knowing I tried absolutely everything possible in my power to keep going but I think deep down I know recovery is nothing but a fantasy but I still have to try and fight for that 1% chance.
I'm ashamed to still be alive and still searching for the right method here, I feel as though I should have died months ago.