Venting I wish I didn't have such a high sex drive...

[SuicidalCurryBoy]

I hate it. And I've gone through phases where I was on anti depressants and my dick was soft for months. Even then I was just trying to masturbate. Or rather felt the urge to...

I have a high sensitivity towards disgust, so I can't bring myself to go to an escort. I consider it "indirect penis contact".

I'm ugly, so I can't find an FWB or girlfriend.


And I'm surprised when people say that they don't have sex drives and don't get post nut clarity.

Because everything I want to do in life is hindered by the lack of sex. When I try to write, code or study, I feel compelled to masturbate....

I no longer get post nut clarity the way I used to. I feel compelled to do it again.

But due to years of trauma, I can't bring myself to be interested in anyone...

The few female friends I have, I have basically told them that I just want to fuck...

it's tearing me apart....

Because what I really wanna do is write, read ,draw and code...

 

[Slark]

Have you tried talking to an endocrinologist about this? Maybe they can help you. I'm on hormone therapy for gender transition from male to female, and my libido is almost zero. Maybe there's a way for you to adjust your libido with medication, but only an endocrinologist can assess that.