I wish I could tell someone

[Hope:-)]

I am in such a deep depression and I plan to attempt on the 16th.I so wish I could tell someone and that they could give me a miraculous answer...which is living in the world of make believe, or that I could have some comfort prior to going ahead with it....which is also living in the world of make believe. Does anyone else wish they could tell someone about what they're planning?

 

[Lifeaballache]

I really want to tell my mum that I'm not in a great place atm. But I don't think I'd tell her that I want to kill myself as I've heard her speak about people whove killed themselves and call them selfish.

I just want to get some of my stress off my chest but I think its staying with me till the end.

 

[jitendrabagaria786@]

I just want to be left alone... Just alone... Away from everyone but it is not possible... Guess I will have to hang myself

 

[Hollowillow]

I am in such a deep depression and I plan to attempt on the 16th.I so wish I could tell someone and that they could give me a miraculous answer...which is living in the world of make believe, or that I could have some comfort prior to going ahead with it....which is also living in the world of make believe. Does anyone else wish they could tell someone about what they're planning?

You could tell me... But I might mess up and say something horrible. But that'd just proves even kindness hurts & you'd be happy to go? Or ee'd be friends and you'd stay some more. @emgrl is doing it for me. Making agony bearable.
I told every pro lufe organisations and they threatened me to shut me up instead to save my life from the poison in my home. I'm scared to go out and meet worse than poison. I hate the woman who come to visit. Souless bucket of fake honey

 

[emgrl]

I feel like if I had one true person that I have had in my life for a while, a true best friend, I would love to tell them to have support near me. I can't do that. No one I know would support me, some not because they don't understand, but because they selfishly won't want me to go.

I'm pro-choice, but it hits different when it's someone close to you. I'm sure most of my closest friends feel the same way.

 

[Hollowillow]

I feel like if I had one true person that I have had in my life for a while, a true best friend, I would love to tell them to have support near me. I can't do that. No one I know would support me, some not because they don't understand, but because they selfishly won't want me to go.

I'm pro-choice, but it hits different when it's someone close to you. I'm sure most of my closest friends feel the same way.

I'm shell fish too! *Hugs you tight* I'll miss you'll fluff! There are so many people that I curse to die sssooooo manyyyyy. But not you. I wish I could make our pain go away. Like this bucket *kicks the bucket through a window. High pitch scream of a man. Car alarm* I guess you can kick the bucket too. But I hope you're not in a hurry. I kinda am & I don't want to at the dame time. Aaaah the curse of pain, trauma, and a barbaric society making it worse!

I suddently want ramen. Msg soup.

You warm my heart more

Let's have parties with @Hope:-)

 

[FuneralCry]

It really would be ideal if we lived in a world where we didn't have to hide our plans to ctb and we could exit without all of the secrecy and stigma surrounding suicide. Maybe it would make it easier for those left behind if they knew about it in advance as they wouldn't be so shocked, but in a world like this telling other people only ever makes things worse and causes more suffering as so many people in this world don't respect the right to die and would potentially try to interfere with plans.

The problem is that other people don't understand as they are not living our lives, many think that suicide is something that must always be prevented but the reality is that staying alive will just prolong suffering and that there is no benefit to continuing to endure a life that could never be worth living.

 

[coyotestark]

I have told people, my cries have fallen on deaf ears.

 

[almostdone]

I get that, I literally made an account here just so I could openly talk about it. I tried therapy for the first time recently and I can't even tell them how I'm really feeling because I don't want to be hospitalized. It just sucks that you can't even tell someone who's supposed to be confidential. People always say "if anyone is feeling suicidal please talk to me first" but what's the point if being honest with them just means I'm going to have my life fucked up even worse by getting sent to a hospital.

 

[Hollowillow]

I have told people, my cries have fallen on deaf ears.

They threatened me.

 

[Angi]

Does anyone else wish they could tell someone about what they're planning?

Oh yes. I feel so terribly alone. Though maybe that's just me. I am apparently talking to you here, but somehow, in my head, I cannot make it count.
Sad to hear you are feeling so bad. I hope the world sends you a ray of sun to light your depression!

 

[locked*n*loaded]

In an ideal world, you would be able to tell someone. In this world, usually that will only lead to your plans getting thwarted, at best, and maybe institutionalization, at worst. If you are really set on ctb, and don't believe any kind of help will change your mind or your life, and are set on seeing it through, it's best to just keep it to yourself. Unfortunately, that's just the way it is.

 

[Hollowillow]

Oh yes. I feel so terribly alone. Though maybe that's just me. I am apparently talking to you here, but somehow, in my head, I cannot make it count.
Sad to hear you are feeling so bad. I hope the world sends you a ray of sun to light your depression!

I'm sorry & worried to hear that... Of course seeing a bidy with facial expressions is needed... But I hope that you don't think that I'm some fake NPC. I am sentient and am interractive (no AI can make up my artistic chaos.)

IRL is a bad expression. Online and offline ate both real life. People who work online have real jobs. Online friends are as real, precious & close as you wish them to be.

I'm hyper sensitive... So I can feel people's emotions from the way they speak. Of course it's text but the feelings are often more real here... Than a group of friends ignoring each ither updating facebook... Sad... We share our deepest soul here, if you wish.

 

[makethepainstop]

We here all seem to be hurting so bad, yet these idiots all around us was T for us to stay here and continue to hurt. Shame we can't sue the hell out of pro lifers, for causing us undue pain.

 

[Hope:-)]

Thanks for all the responses guys. I am feeling a little better now. I am going to do a 'reasons to live' and 'reasons to commit suicide' list and see what I can come up with. X

 

[Angi]

I'm sorry & worried to hear that... Of course seeing a bidy with facial expressions is needed... But I hope that you don't think that I'm some fake NPC. I am sentient and am interractive (no AI can make up my artistic chaos.)

IRL is a bad expression. Online and offline ate both real life. People who work online have real jobs. Online friends are as real, precious & close as you wish them to be.

I'm hyper sensitive... So I can feel people's emotions from the way they speak. Of course it's text but the feelings are often more real here... Than a group of friends ignoring each ither updating facebook... Sad... We share our deepest soul here, if you wish.

Oh, thank you. It is very kind of you to pay so much attention! Do not worry, I would never think you are an NPC. I hope you do not think so either?

 

[Darkover]

make bible
believe bible
world becomes bible

 

[SarRy]

Yeah, it would be nice to be honest without fear of being sent to a psych ward or be hospitalized. In my experience, nobody cares that you're broken until they get cut by your broken shards.

The only answer that can be given is to seek professional help. See if therapy or medication would make a difference. If you need to , seek help for your life problems. Financial aid, disability aid, housing aid, etc. can help to improve life or at least lessen how awful it is.